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zsiga something unbelievable happens every time I'm with him. it's always beyond coincidence. we are so in tune with each other that we feel and think the same things. the circular pattern on his bed. and now the song. that song. the one that ran thru my head was playing. blue eyes baby's got blue eyes. and there no is no song that fits him more. the color of the ocean that he stares into is reflected in them. 050327
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zsiga something unbelievable happens every time I'm with him. it's always beyond coincidence. we are so in tune with each other that we feel and think the same things. the circular pattern on his bed. and now the song. that song. the one that ran thru my head was playing. blue eyes baby's got blue eyes. and there no is no song that fits him more. the color of the ocean that he stares into is reflected in them. 050327
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zsiga passion is our word. his and mine. passion is the blathe that came up. ....weird. 050327
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zsiga this is too good to be true. something has to go wrong and that's why butterflies are crawling all thru my stomach tearing me apart. i want to hear his voice to ease my fears, but i am so scared this time is it. the dreaded day that i wish would never come. the more i fall for him the worse it is. why does love have to be so scary?

Once again he has eased my fears by calling and letting me know that he enjoys being with me. Everything is so right. Something just has to go wrong. I didn’t feel this fear with Troy, I just let myself go with the flow. But I have known hurt and disappointment over recent months. I compare him to the past. It isn’t easy to let go of the past. He gives me everything I need and makes me so happy. I see it growing into mutual love somewhere down the road. It doesn’t have to be that way now. I don’t have to know how he feels by his words.

My fears are even more so dissolved. He makes me feel like I’m akeeper”. I don’t have to wonder if he would suddenly lose his feelings for me. We have a friendship that ties us together beyond what I’ve felt with men of the past. That doesn’t go away on a whim.

Each time I see him sex gets better and better. the way he moved not just side to side but in a wave like motion was so sensual and beautiful. And then we danced and he moved the same way. Someone was listening to my prayers, i believe.
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zsiga i hadn't laughed so hard or been so disturbed all day. so they said that the owner of the cat came back to get a paw print, which we forgot to do. and they pulled the grey frozen blob out of the bag. i looked away in terror at it's fat distorted body. sherrie started singing "I'm turning Japanese". the leg simply could not be separated from the body without a thawing. microwaving was out of the question. so in thinking quickly, we enlisted the help of Mario, an orange tabby who happily forged his pawprint. 050416