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hi
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hi from me too
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as well as me
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mon
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couldn't not say hello, could i? hello :)
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um_hi, or 'ello rather.
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since its the rage
'ello, 'ow's thengs? all roight thun. oi, er 'ave a good'un thun.
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'sup brah? Dizzo to the ozzoff to the iza to the rizza D O A R..Death Of A Rose
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i just wanted to say hello. . .
ask how_are_you? and such things.
but instead he ignores his very own page
where we all chose to say 'ello.
goodbye_hello
when it's more like
hello_goodbye (doityousheheevenexist?)
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i didn't think so.
can you make me unalone?
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no i didn't think so either.
im too tired to fix my mistakes
or go any further in life.
there is something beautiful about a trampoline at midnight
and stars you can barely see.
placing your head on a soft stomach
and enjoying what the sky has to offer.
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endless you and your friend nora look like the best of friends. and death of a rose come keep us company! we're lonely here in your rented space.
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helloh ?
oh
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oh
there's an echo
echo
echo
in here
here
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Okay....okay...'ello to all. My newfound friends, blatherites, countrymen/countywomen (I wouldn't want to be politically incorrect now would I). Thank you, from the depth of my senses, thank you!
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Endless desire, a special hello to you sweetness.
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realistic optimist, be not lonely, you just have to have patience (I'm one to call the kettle blue).
Let this rented space become a haven, a small spot in the woods, where we can gather around the bonfire, spit and shout, dance and rejoice, have a cup of coffee while listening to some music of our choice. Then we all can gently fall asleep, ready to begin it all again. Or maybe we don't need sleep here. 24/7 contentment
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hi!
hihi!
hi hi hi! hi! hi!
'ello!
woods? bonfire? spit and shout? dance and rejoice? coffee?
i am so the... er... here!
hihi!
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Cheers misstree, thank you for the hihi. It's always pleasant to run into a hihi. I don't always wear my seatbelt.
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hello, and may the light set you free :)
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Death_of_a_Rose is a blather stalker.
*gives the computer a look and then realizes that the computer isn't real*
how are you, then? i know very little about you. what made you choose your name? (it seems to be one of my favourite questions)
nora's my dearest and closest friend. she is my loyal companion. i lost her chemistry book, then lost my own, owe her and her mum money, and she is terribly horribly sick, but she still wanted to come with me today to help me find a dress from homecoming. i found the most beautiful dress that i insist upon wearing around the house because i love feeling this elegant. i'll definately post pictures because i am just so in love with it. we enjoy each other's humor (very few people understand). we are both terribly melodramatic. we stuggle with so many of the same things. we sing at random times. we break the stereotypes for everything. she's a terrific poet. i love her, if you can't tell. :) i rarely stay close with friends for long periods of time. i don't know why. i just change and move and grow and so do my friends.
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Dear endless desire,
I don't mean to be a blather stalker, it just seems that once I find someone on here that seems so real (to me at least) or forlorn or whatever, I have to delve a little into what they've written (just a little, I'm still a neophyte, haven't passed the initiation rites yet), just so I can try to gain a little of their world and perspective.
I am, well, at this exact moment, i am watching the sunrise through the basement window and feeling so very lucky that I have found this chaos diary, happy that I've been checking some blathes and you and ferret and alot of others have responded, and that I haven't had a drink in two days.
I hope that it doesn't sound trite, but I've always felt that roses (white and black) have always had a better symbolic meaning than anything else, to me. So the first thing that popped my fingers into typing was that "Death of a Rose", of course like many others (or is it just 4), I do have other personalities walking around here, and maybe one day I can get them into the same room, have a coffee and sort their differences out. Hope that sorta explains things for you endless.
Nora and you make quite the pair. don't leave her behind. make any and all memories of her a special gallery in your mind. take them out when you need to smile or cry.
You should smile, although your braver than I, in that I've always hated having my picture taken.
Maybe someday I'll buy the courage to become part the blather picsite.
Have you said somewhere in this vast space, or do you mind if I ask what happened to nora?
I'm sending you a hug endless.
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haha oh i dont mind if you b_stalk me. actually, i kind of enjoy it. i am proud of (most) of what i've written on blather. it is an acurate portrait (minus any of my religious convictions). of course, i stalked you in return, though, i didn't make it quite as obvious.
i am glad you enjoy blather. lately it means everything to me. i'm fairly new here, also. i've only been here for 5 months or so. i like your blather name, but i am having trouble coming up with a nickname for you. usually i address certain skites by a shorter name. i dont want to call you death and i dont want to call you rose (too feminine). i could always call you "of a" but it really doesn't ring well with me. neither does DOAR. let me know if you have any ideas.
i love getting my picture taken but i remember i was anxious about putting any on blather because. . .well this is silly. i don't think im very attractive, and really, it doesn't matter in the whole scheme of things. these negative thoughts result in problems with my eating habits that i have blathed about. i am always afraid that people on blather will see the pictures and think that i should continue these eating habits because i (need) to. now, i know they don't. they wouldn't, i hope. it is just an unusual fear of mine. you should put your picture on. i like seeing faces with names.
im not quite sure if i know what you mean by "what happened to nora." if you mean, where is she in my life, she is still my best friend. if you mean what things does she deal with and why, well i'll tell you those if that's what you mean but right now i have to go.
i return your hug. have a ______ day. (good sounds phony. nice sounds rushed. colourful sounds like im far more excited than i really am about the whole ordeal. so just have whatever kind of day that you would enjoy most)
im sorry for the typos. im sure they are there since i didnt proofread.
i enjoy turkey sandwiches.
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*blinks*
hi
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desire,
nickname....hmmm....as for the name....why not turn the abbreviation of Death of a Rose around. DOAR=RAOD....hmmm...that didn't work out quite like I had planned....okay....flip the A and the O.
Now I'm ROAD, or at least that's one idea....there are others, but I'll wait and see what you think.
Eating habits....blathed?....I'm not acting the good blather stalker, am I.
That will be rectified.
If I put my picture up it would scare little children, give vampires nightmares, and cause widespread panic.
You don't want to hear the emergency broadcast system come on, do you? National guard, economic collapse, and the end of civilization as we know it.....hmmmm.....come to think of it...that would be...nah...bad thought.
I will, in time. Just have to decide which swimsuit shot I should put up....let's see, the one piece, two piece or the topless with the thong....maybe too much imagery in the last....
As you can notice, I do tend to go overboard.
Nora.....I thought I had read somewhere, don't ask me now, that Nora was or had suffered a nasty disease or cancer, you have my permission to smack me for not paying close enough attention.
Turkey soup, turkey pie, turkey salad, goooooo turkey.
Have a monster of a day.
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unhinged.....hey there, hi there, ho there
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road hmmm
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endless,
forgot to ask you the origin of your name.
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Road, (not bad)
how are you doing this morning?to save you the time (where_did_you_get_your_sn_from and h_ello_misstree):
i got my name from a quote "Longing, we say, because desire is full of endless distances." --Robert Hass it's one of my favourites it rings true on so many levels. longing. it just kills me besides, i liked the sound of endless_desire. i never meant to keep it. i just needed one for one day and it stuck.
eating habits. haha it won't take long going down my list before one of those pops up. everyone has an issue they struggle with. bulimia just happens to be mine. (god i hate the sound of that word)
i doubt civilazation will come to an end because of your picture--that would be giving you waaaay to much credit for something awesome. i definately say go with the thong.
hey, so what's your email? you don't put it down.
smack, you turkey (my grandma calls me that when im at idiot)! nora has never had any sort of deadly disease. thank god.
have a delicious day.
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*gives head knod*
magical_language_of_men (boys)
no_words_needed
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endless,
morning was okay, wasted alot of work time here.
Don't say I didn't warn you.
I told you so. Goto:
http://ca.photos.yahoo.com/rehtalb
and I did find out about your blather id card origin.
see also 100 things about me
100_facts_about_me
cheers desire
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look at the pic b4 you ask for the add
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now that blather has been rejuvenated with the likes of you and oldephebe and a few others its making me itch to come back and waste all kinds of time here like i used to when i first showed up a few years ago but my brain is so fixated on school right now that everything creative is being strangled. but it's nice to know blather is back in old form with the recent list huge and all kinds of people stalking each other and making friends and whatnot. i don't feel so unhinged as i used to but it's creeping back to me. i guess that's why they call depression a disease...just when you think you've gotten rid of it...bastards.
and i hate even more when everyone keeps asking me whats wrong cause i don't feel like smiling lately. blah. blah blah. totally sick of that deception. i feel like shit on so many levels so i look like shit too. there you go. blah.
anyways, nice to have you here. you make me want to come back fulltime. *sigh*
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that particular disease will never leave you, I'm saddened to inform. It'll either take full control of your life (perhaps it already has) or it'll fade away, or like me and perhaps you, both of the above, in that order. Either way, it'll still be lurking around.
feeling cheery today, sorry.
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unhinged, may you find something/anything here that will lift you out the hole you dig. because I'm hoping the same thing, and I've stopped digging for a little while.
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road,
i think the picture rocks. it certainly wasn't what i expected but it made me smile quite a bit. i don't figure anyway looks what anyone else expects though, myself included. but props, nonetheless, for adding to the blather rainbow of people.
and don't you remember? i've already b_stalked you and read your 100 facts. that blathe is actually one of my favourites on blather and any time it is on recent, i visit it first. it tells so much about a person. . .and i guess in a way, it also tells you about where they are in their life and what they want you to know about themselves. i've read that whole page and posted on it. it's just wonderful.
i'm in a cheery mood today (and not sarcastically as user24 was. . .or at least i assumed he was being sarcastic but you can never tell on computers. that's one thing that drives me crazy. i hate not knowing what mood people are in when they say somthing.) and also feeling rather chatty. sorry about that. i always seem to apologize for talking (typing) too much because i figure it annoys people.
anywho, hows your day going? mine's hardly started (it being 7:30).
i can't really think of much else to say. i'd offer words of wisdom to unhinged. . .if i was wise enough to do so. unfortunately, my disposition is no unlike hers, so i feel that anything i say would be of little use. though currently, i have a very bright outlook on life. but that's the most horrid part about it. i know that soon i will come back down from feeling cheerful and it will be so much worse than it would have been to be neutral. im a rollercoaster of emotions. i shoot right up to one and dive right down to the next without so much as a warning. i used to enjoy it. now i am just tired by it and i savor the moments i can just be neutral and indifferent to everything. i know most people hate those the most, but i feel that those times take less of a toll on me. i sink inside myself and the world can't touch me. all of the sudden i don't feel so very cheerful. ok. well. im sorry about typing this much. im sorry about everything, i suppose. except for myself. i never want to feel sorry for myself. i can't it when people feel sorry for themselves.
hope you have an enjoyable day.
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endless,
you are one sweet soul.
and stop apologizing, that is what this blatherworld is for, cleanse yourself in its waters.
and I can definitely say that I can empathize with your roller coaster,
crashed a few in my time.
as for the day, I've spent half of it, blathing new trails, visiting old ones, watching for signs of friends leaving bread crumbs.
I'll smile for you if you need a break, K.
anytime you need a hand.....
I'll take the high road and you can take the low road, they both go to the same place.
Sugary dreamday to ya lass.
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i feel pain when nothing's wrong.
i feel anger for no apparent reason.
overwhelmed and dying to scream and cry and just get out of control. and i want to express that somehow on these pages but i feel as though no words i can say will clearly show anyone the vast array of emotions i am feeling. and there is no reason and i just don't understand. i am at home. and i can just lie on the green carpet and think. in my living room, we have a large window that the sun pours into. it's covered by white curtains. but they are lite curtains, the kind that blow in every breeze. i love trees. the way that the sun shines through the green. it's such a beautiful day in such a cozy house. i should just be content. i just lie here and think. fall into my mind and the curtains and the leaves and the sun since blather won't let me fall into its pages.
where exactly do you work (if you haven't already said)? what do you do?
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you presumed wisely.
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I work for a design/build firm. What I do for them is draw pretty pictures on large sheets of paper (I design buildings for a living).
non-barbaqued day for you.
User24...you sneak around.
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do I? in what way?
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don't make me have to live my day.
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user24, a good way. you just tend to pop up in unexpected places....hmmm....but thats what your suppose to do isn't it?
Forget I ever said anything.
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what's up endless. why the glum expression?
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im tired and my head hurts and im feeling terribly depressed for no reason at all. i hate myself to a particularly large to degree this morning. from the way i look to who i am to what i think. the day is cloudy and there is nothing to look forward to. and i'd rather just sit and blather and sleep. but i can't because life doesn't want to make me happy. im lonely. someone talk to me.
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desire,
no need to slam your head against the wall, I've already dented it for you. Nice fit.
don't despair, I'll rage and rant for you.
So here I am taking some talk out of you.
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help me. can't someone help me? can't anyone help me at all. im so lost and im swimming in something terrible.
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and for the love of god, i dont know why. that's the worst part. i dont know anything. anything at all but anything. oh god i feel like i am going to have some sort of mental breakdown. i need to get out of here and to a place where i can be fake and happy and feel . . . anything but this.
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hmmm....I'll just stand over here.
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im sorry about that.
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hey, get it all out, endless.
left you a poem on your endless_desire
page
Hope you like it.
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road, i loved the poem. it was so beautiful and quite fitting. i needed that. thankyou.
you sounded a bit...err i dont know, uncomfortable with my outburst. i don't mean to. i really don't. you shouldn't have to stand anywhere. this is hello to death_of_a_rose. not endless_desire's_turn_to_complain or anything. and anyways, im sure it doesn't matter. boy do i feel like a mess.
anywho, enough of my bitching. how was your day? or i suppose you'll read this in the morning, so how is your day? the rest of my weekend is horribly busy so i am going to just take a breath and dive in. with a good attitude and outlook. everything is going to be just fine.
i love placing my fingers on the screen of the laptop. espcially with the blue background. laptops have those soft screens that make the images on the compouter look like gel when i push my fingers on the surface. i wish all of life looked like that when you ran your fingers through it. every object would be so calming. but i suppose you'd get used to it and it would lose its beauty. i do that to so many things in life. i mean, the world around me is so beautiful yet i take it for granted everyday. we all could live on some waste land of a planet. and while, i am still (miserably) stuck in southern_california, at least im not some where even more dreadful.
what's the weather like in your plot of land? (power to canadians. do you say garbarator too? i was told by another one of your kind that you call garbage disposals garbarators. freakish canadians. haha but i still hope that one day i'll have the honor of being one myself. a girl can dream)
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endless, you're quite welcome.
Can you do me a favour?
Don't apologize for anything. I was just standing off to the side, ready with a shoulder, that's all. Sometimes people just need to scream and pound their fists against the wall and they need to do it alone. So, complain and wail when you need to.
My day yesterday was.....hmmmm...not so good either. Just felt nothing really (except of course when I was blathing).
Sounds like your going to have a great weekend, enjoy!
Loved the imagery you spoke of.
Weather here, for us freakish Canadians (laughing), is beginning to chill the nights and mornings, precursor to snow.
And we only say 'garbarator' in secret, its a power word to Canadians, only those who know about 'garbarators' are those with money and power.
We can always use more transplanted Americans. Just bring warm clothing, and a willingness to laugh at anything.
Have an electric blue day endless.
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hey i lived in a house with a garborator once,
well,..i wasn't living with the garborator
i never really used it, didn't work properly i was scared it would take people's hands off like in those crazy scenes from movies
(: !compost! :)
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i have a bad habit for apologizing when there is no_reason to do so or when there is. just apologizing a lot in general. i figure it walks hand in hand with all my dreadful insecurities. the best part is i insist to everyone that i am absolutely not insecure. haha im insecure about being insecure. terrrrific.
i envy your weather. sooo fing boring around here. i love weather. and it cooled down a bit the past few weeks. but this week it's been 80 and monday it's suppose to hit 90. yeah not fun at all. not when you love sweaters and gloves and mittens and scarves. in good old southern_california, you get to wear mittens once in a blue moon. i mean, what feels cold to me isn't what feels cold to everyone else. cold is 50 degrees. i can't wait to move and freeze my buns off some place.
im canada bound.
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I'll be sure to inform our immigration offices on your imminent arrival. Don't mind the guard dogs.
blatherday to you endless.
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do you suppose they'd let a crazy girl like me in?
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just tell them you have a bag of guns and a suitcase full of cocaine,
they rarely have a hard time coming north
to semi-quote our soon_to_be shifted PM from an old news conference:
"drucks? drucks are good for the economy. The united states is our friend." blah blah blah etc.
*whisper whisper tween jean boy and clinton*
"oh drugs! i thought you said trucks!"
loved it the other week when he said that when he leaves office he is going to have a joint in one hand and money in the other to pay for the pot-fine he might get
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you could claim refugee status, we can't seem to track all the criminals we've let into our country, but there are alot of good honest immigrants that get here too.
say you were being politically kept down and you want to avoid the draft, because you don't want to be shipped to Iraq.
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I fully acknowledge the existence of your reality and hereby except it as a facet of my own.
which is the CR way of saying hi.
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i reality phase you into my stream of conciousness (sp?).
then we reload our data into spiral notebooks.
(hi)
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Good to know the lingo exists outside of my own head.
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shhhhhhmoooolalaticktickmuuuuucccckk
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hands a hankerchif to endless. Exqueeze you.
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haha today has been a day.
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tell me all about it.....I've got the new listening aural thingy in.....shit....ear piece thingy.....
Okay....just type how the 'day' was.
Don't make me beg.
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Hello!
seems to me that you have quickly become a blather addict.
i dont blame you
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Hey Freak! (complicated hand shaking)
have a cancer stick and jo.
Addiction is the monkey on my shoulder, some call him an angel, some call him the devil, I call him.....overwhelming.
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things are feeling better. i don't want to jump to any irrational conclusions, but i actually feel happy. it's surprising and exciting. i am alive and awake and there's really nothing better.
. . .don't let me stumble again. . .
please.
i had homecoming this weekend. it was wonderful. i had a magical time. i'll put up pictures as soon as i can figure out how to :)
how've you been doing?
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http://f1.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/polkadotell/lst?.dir=/Homecoming+03&.view=t
check em out. . yee homecoming
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your smile is very photogenic and I'm jumping up and down in pure, unrestrained happiness, because you had a 'good day'.
Peace to you endless.
we will not let you slip. Bought some bungee cord.
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doing? badly......
desire and freak, please visit somebody_has_probably_alread_done_this page and add some verse....please....pretty begging please....I told you not to make me beg....pathetic isn't it.
And I know about the missing y.
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Freak
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what page?
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endless,
you are soooo pretty and your dress is beautiful! I hope you had a good time at homecoming!
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n/m road, i found the page, it just hadn't linked on this one yet.
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endless desire
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hey thanks you guys. i really like them. i felt very elegant that night. haha i wish i could go to a dance every night. that'd be so coo(l).
road, you are wonderful.
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Death of a Rose
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shucks, shifts some dirt around with his sneaker, while scarlet moon face lights up.
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pipedream
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hello rosieeeeee, giver of flowers that jump off trains and warm drainey hearts!
*carefully sticks a big white rose-shaped sparkle over the door*
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hello rosieeeeee, giver of flowers that jump off trains and warm drainey hearts!
*carefully sticks a big white rose-shaped sparkle over the door*
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realistic optimist
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is it against the rules to say hi twice? if so, then hihi.
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seventeen
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aloha? (hey, I DO live in Hawaii...)
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ah....beautific pipe dream, r.o. you rock, and seventeen (past sixteen) keep yourself warm with our blue hugs.
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endless desire
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i like your little bug.
it makes me happy.
*grins*
how've you been doing?
i feel so damn cheery
and then not
and then so damn cheery
and then not.
it's actually kind of entertaining.
i thought something was wrong with me
and then i remembered i was a_teenager_a_girl_a_dreamer all at the same.
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yes, my niece is special to me.
her eyes dance with merriment and impishness.
Doing......about the same.....just differently.
and you seem to play ping pong with yourself quite often.
besides that, is endless desire still dreaming? Good, don't ever stop.
oh....by the way....found a lizzy for you.
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*smiles so joyousily that she is sure you can hear her in canada*
aren't the lizzies wonderful?
i have an adorable little brother who is 1 years old. i'll put a few pictures of him up when i find them because i've honestly never seen a cuter baby in my whole life and i haven't met anyone yet who disagrees with me. and im not saying that just because he's my brother.
playing ping pong. yes i suppose i am. i've never been any good at ping pong though.
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Dear Endless,
ick and doubleick have gotten a restraining order placed upon Road.
Apparently he cruises for underage girls.
For your own safety please stay outside the crime scene tape.
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endless desire
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now that is unfortunate.
. . .i always knew there was something slightly strange about him.
hahaha
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i loooove babies, endless lets see a piccc
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oh definately. i'll put one up ASAP
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yay
*leaves a yellow starburst candle for DOAR that smells like lemons and citrusy things when lit, and burns with this sparkly glittery flame*
for one candle buff, from another.
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how_are_you?
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*grin*, and how is the beautific pvcpillow today? Keep it up with the sparklies luv.
*another grin for endless*
I think the question should be
"How are you doing endless?"
Heard about the fires and your asthma.
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*lights the candle and takes a big sniff*
yummy
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pvcpillow, here is a sky blue candle for you with wisps of white within, the aroma of desire and gently falling rain.
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Endless, another poem for you on your page, in case you needed a wistful smile.
hmmmm....
I give cyber roses to pvcpillow and
poetry to endless, and serious melodrama to somebody_has_probably_already_done_this_before.....
where is this going?
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the swanki portent-o-matic predicts you shall find a torrid love affair in your real life world
*pause for dramatic effect*
*om*
CANDLE! AAAAH! *HUG*
*runs off to find a match*
ohgoodygoodygoody what a gorgeous smell aaaah
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it seems Road is playing the ladies. my 14 year old brother told me a few days ago:
"i play two instruments, ellyn. i play the bass and i play the ladies."
i laughed my pants off.
http://f1.pg.photos.yahoo.com
go there and go to "ryan" there's only two pictures but he is wonderful.
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cute little bro endless....
keep on burning brightly desire
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i can't see 'em! where? i have to sign in and blah blah :S
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who are you?
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Death of a Rose
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hmm....huh....what...
was your question directed at me?
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endless desire
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yes, you are death_of_a_rose, are you not?
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yes, and you are endless desire, aren't you?
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endless desire
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no i am ellyn and i am beautiful and i am lonely.
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of course you're beautiful...that should go without saying.
should i ask why you're feeling alone?
you know me, you've stalked me, so you know i can relate to feelings of empty loneliness.
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well that was nice of you to say. i suppose everyone is beautiful. and nearly everything is beautiful if you look at it in the right light. nearly being the key word.
i am lonely and not entirely sure why. ive really pulled away from everyone. and it's not that i mine, or i wouldn't have done it. but life is just too exhausting to live and well, i feel so completely alone. no one really sees me anymore. i hardly see myself. somedays i feel like i can't even hear myself speak. and while, ive felt like this before, ive never felt like this for so many months. and now i am so ready to be done with everything and sleep for the last 65 years of my life.
it's nice talking to you.
i feel like i haven't talked to you in quite a long time.
what's your email, road?
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smurfus rex
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hey Death of a Rose.
nice to meet you.
:)
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ah...withdrawel (hmmm...sp?) from the world, too much life and chaos around you.
know that the emptiness can be filled in, just a matter of time. and yes, it does feel like an age since we talked/chatted (don't let misstree get ahold of this page or she'll go on a purist rampage and i was only able to sidetrack her with a few of my own barbs).
left my e-mail on this post. bright blue smiles for you endless. :-)
and hey there smurfus, rascal that you are, thanks for dropping by. i'm glad to have made your aquaintence.
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doar..'sup brah?
just wondering how your feeling today.
peace..
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pvc lonesome
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i missing youuuuuuuuuuuuu
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hello oE,
not doing too well. people are just one dissapointment after another. i despair of having a higher relationship with a woman (not a girl, i'm tired of the games, besides they need boys to demean and ridicule), plus i've learned a few things in the past two days that are leaving me a little more dead inside and outside.
i'd miss you as well my pillow, because my aim is terrible
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i'd miss you, but my aim is terrible...?
he don't miss me!
*sniffs and scowls at binky*
i will now proceed to ridicule and expose your petty boy-man state! rrar!
im sorry some thoughtless girl has stomped on you...people don't understand where to just let some things be. you gotta believe in some illusions to stay sane, and its nobody's business to come ripping on them like a hippo on the rampage.
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no...no...pd...it was a bad attempt at some levity..
"i'd miss you as well my pillow, because my aim is terrible"
i'd miss you because my aim is terrible means that i'd would never mean to hit you.....le sigh....
i apologize if it didn't have the desired effect pillow.
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oE, thanks brah.
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'kay. :)
i hopes you is doing better...its rattle-rattle empty here without you.
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i'm just coasting right now....maybe try belgium or norway.....hmmm...
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wow...are you skippin' 'round the continent?
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death has many places he has to visit...and many faces he has to see.
i'm just riding the waves of my own understanding at the moment.
hangin ten.....
since your riding my horse binky...i need my trusty surfboard...slappy...hehe
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Elliott Cable
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Hello from AK!
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Death Rattling His Head
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Arkansas?
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Death Bouncy Bouncy
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Alaska?
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Doar not really serious
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what....that's all you are going to say? the bloody nerve, just popping in and saying two words. that's it buddy, I'm putting you on my list of people to hunt down and rip their limbs from their bodies. ooooo...you make me so angry......
:-)
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sup big D!
if you're still globetrotting, let me know if you ever find yourself passing through the Mojave Desert, around 29 Palms way...
though I wouldn't wish such a journey on you...this is where you end up when you get lost in a Wile E. Coyote cartoon. :)
stay out of trouble out there!
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Smurfus, it's been awhile my brother. I've quit my job and will be moving soon. Drop me a line by e-mail when you get a chance and I'll fill you in on it all.
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this was....an alternative term....
good in a quiet sound.
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'ello old chap.
Ever wonder why rainbows always seem as far away as you approach them as they were before you began?
I tend to wonder if the pot o' gold myth is there to suggest that we stop looking for happiness somewhere other than where we are.
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daf, my friend. you always bring the heart to my heart.
Love you Brah!
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publish.....my...poetry...
never thought my words were worthwhile to anyone.
but you did, and many others have, tell me to.....i'm still having trouble with that thought. Seriously, give me honest feedback, not some earstwhile passing comment, some real feedback. There are sounds or the sounding of words, that are pleasant to others voices, but real fucking indelicate lambasting, oh how the tymphony beratres a languished heart, like quientess in front of a stupering malidect, like a favoured coolness upon Hectactes nipples....
LMAO.
oh should it be,
or will it profusely be?
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My friend, the minute anyone agrees to "give you feedback, good honest feedback..." they've entered into a co-dependent relationship with you.
Because what does it matter if a few anonymous somebodies give you their honest opinion? I mean, to what extent does that bring you closer to getting the honest feedback of those whose opinions really DO matter, at least to your poetry and its future or lack thereof: publishers.
I say this as a friend: I've seen it a thousand times before. The relentless onslaught of doubt transformed into a hundred private showings, one or two people at a time..all because of our tendency to half-step instead of just going for it. Stop half-stepping bro. Put it together, find someone to proofread and help YOU edit. (ESPECIALLY poets should always have a direct hand in the editing of their work, as it's edited. I don't mind helping, but not if it's then going to sit in a sock drawer for a couple of decades.) These are your creative children. It is a tragedy and a travesty to pull a "Carrie's Mom" and lock your children away from the world, for fear of what the world will think of them. You have all of the honest feedback you need from your audience. What you're looking for (IMHO) is fuel for your lack of confidence. You're looking for negative feedback to agree with your hidden fears so you can avoid the idea altogether and remain in a self-imposed prison of hopelessness.
Just go for it! And if the first one says no..go for it again..and again..and again.. If YOU don't believe in your work...who will? If YOU don't fight for your children's survival, who then?
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