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endless desire
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theres
no
way
to
understand
this
fog.
i
feel
so
tired.
no
way
out
why
am
i
living?
what
am
i
living
for?
every
time
i
stand
i
feel
lightheaded.
you
know
the
feeling?
when
you
stand
up
too
quickly.
except
now
it's
all
the
time.
and
i'll
be
walking
and
i
feel
like
ive
been
running
for
ages.
i
don't
want
to
go
christmas
shopping
because
that
must
standing
seems
far
too
exhausting.
i
swear
it's
not
laziness.
i
want
to
move
and
be
happy.
but
i
am
just
so
physically
exhausted
by
life.
my
heart
beats
so
hard
that
i
feel
like
it's
coming
out
of
my
chest.
why
is
it
going
this
quickly?
jeezus
i
get
so
nervous.
im
so
goddamn
anxious
all
the
time.
i
have
nothing
to
keep
me
looking
for
the
next
day.
i
can't
even
see
straight
anymore.
it's
never
been
this
bad.
does anyone understand?
i
tell
my
mum.
she
says
it
might
be
some
of
the
medicine
im
on.
can anyone hear me?
i
really
want
to
see
my
doctor
but
i
feel
like
a
hypocondriac
or
however
you
spell
that.
im lost. im so sorry.
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Rambling sleepy TK
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my own mom seems to be suffering the same thing, your not alone, it deeply bothers me to see her like this and yet I don't kbnow what to say or do to fix it witch is fustrateing, I wish the cure were a floresent bandade on your forhead for a few days and them bam your all better, but thats highly unlikely
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TK
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typo: band aid
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des
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i went to the doctor today. othropedic hypotension (or some big nonsense word). it seems anaphranil is making my blood pressure miserably low, which explains the exhaustion, dizziness, and crazy fast heart beat (my "ticker" is trying to get the blood everywhere. poor guy). at resting, i clocked 110 beats per minute. well at least i know that something's wrong and not that the depression is getting worse...i just feel worse because im so tired. now im just waiting for it to get out of my system so i stop worrying about losing consciousness.
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oE
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des - endless - charmed iron flower ..is it okay is I pray for you tonight?..really..
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endless desire
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oh oldephebe. i would feel everso blessed. thank_you
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oldephebe
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no, it's no problem endless..after reading some of your recent posts you've wheighed a little heavy on my heart..some of us take our health for granted and blithely judge others w/o knowing all the facts...hope you'll be do a littel better soon..
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monee
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hope you're doing better endless,...
red: my_relentless_heartbeat
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