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my_relentless_heartbeat
endless desire won't let me go
hangs on like the mother clings her child
i pray that tomorrow i'll wake in darkness
or whatever awaits me.
doesn't my body feel how tired i am?
how much i would love to end...
end everything.
so sick of trying, of making my life out of nothing, of not having a purpose or a reason for existance.
I AM SO TIRED OF JUST TAKING UP AIR
I AM A WASTE OF SPACE
I AM A WASTE OF MONEY
OF TIME
OF CONCERN
let me go.
that's all i ask, so simple, so easy
i'm tired of anticipating my final hour
tired of waking up disappointed
tired of feeling so useless
so pointless
such a waste
you don't understand, you never will
you pound out of my chest, or not enough
tease me...and then im done.
relentless. i_hate_you with everything.
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Ouroboros . 111029
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Ouroboros the heart that keeps steadily beating
the breath drawn in and expelled again and again
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