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	romantic_version_of_reality
unhinged	perpetuates suffering there are some people that stay in your heart forever. no matter what shit they pull, no matter how many times they are an asshole, you can't stop loving them. a part of your heart will always be occupied by them. for a very long time you might even compare others to them looking for a replica; or at least a replica of all the good parts. it's a ridiculous notion. but the emotional heart is a ridiculous thing. the fact of the matter is you didn't see it. the way he was with people. he did hide many things from you. and because you only vacationed there it was relatively easy for him to pretend to be something else for you. and yes people told you a lot of it. but you didn't see it. you didn't see the way he treated people like shit. the cruel cold callous things he did and said to get himself ahead. and yes it was mostly the coke talking. but he irrevocably damaged himself. i understand that you will always love him. i really do understand that. but he will never be the person you fell in love with again. there will always be cold sharp edges in him that the coke made. he will always treat you like shit just like he always has. he thinks about you. you think about him. but there is no reason to keep communicating with him. very sad but true. walk_away already for christ's sake. the more you romanticize it, the longer it is going to confuse and hurt you. you were never his girlfriend. he always picked the bitches for that. he never committed to you. he used you. and even while that might have been mutually beneficial for awhile and you guys shared some awesome things and times, he used you. just like he used everyone else, for his own ends. that is the reality of him dear. and while part of you will always love him, you need to face that reality, move on, and be happy for what you did manage to glean from it. the heart fulls us all. la vie en rose.	070712
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Your friend	i read this all expecting it to be from our fellow skite who went to thailand recently and blathed of a troublesome romantic entanglement so i was surprised to see it blathed by you, friend	070712
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unhinged	it was his birthday on the 11th. he had left her a myspace message for her birthday this year. she was overly impressed at him 'remembering her birthday' but the reality is he only knew the exact day because myspace tells you. she 'ignored' this but of course decided to send him a message on his birthday. myspace wouldn't let her send it for some reason so she texted him. he immediately texted back saying she didn't know how much it meant to him that she remembered. she was in a tizzy all night and i had to hear the same stories i've been hearing for years about him and his family and why she loves him. i introduced them seven years ago. about three years ago, me and him stopped talking to each other because he was slandering a mutual friend on the internet and i laid into him about it on the internet because i lived nine hours away and he in turn stopped talking to me because i told the truth about situations he was trying to keep secret from his family. mind you, his family is not stupid, he lived with his family and i codified my attack in such a way that he could have denied it if confronted but he is such an arrogant prick that he couldn't accept the truth in my statements and ran to her to bitch about what a bitch i was. she is very literally my best friend and i didn't speak to her for at least three months because she defended him. as stated above, she lived in another time and only saw him sporadically and he became a very good actor with the people he cared about in the dark days of his substance abuse. pretty much like we all do. she has been hurt by him for years because of his lack of maturity, committment, and honesty. but she still rationalizes his bullshit and she still lets a myspace message or a text throw her hopelessly off balance. i once had very strong feelings for him also. to the point that it hurt me that he picked her over me (which all guys do). then it started to hurt me that he treated her like shit. and then lied and hid things from her and she fell for the coked out actor he became to hide who he really was when his small shred of conscience begged him to. the fight that ended my friendship with him was just as much an attempt to wake his sorry ass up as it was to defend our mutual friend. but he reacted the way i expected him to, took it as a personal attack, and i haven't talked to him since. i have also been trying to convince her to WALK AWAY from him for the past three years. she really doesn't talk to him much, but her recent communication with him has her hoping that they can be friends again. i want to bash both their heads together. i am guilty of it too, but i wish she would stop chasing guys that treat her like shit. he used the fact that she lived three hours away as an excuse to never committ to her. he just wanted to chase hos in the town he lived in rather than face the fact that the sweetest girl he had ever met outside of his own family was willing to do pretty much anything to make him happy. he is a weakminded twat that had the answers to all his problems right the fuck in front of him and was too lazy to reach out and do the right thing. she doesn't believe enough in her own worth and can't objectively look at the situation to realize that loving him has done nothing but cause her pain. sorry; this shit has been going on for as long as i've been at blather and wednesday night was the last straw.	070713
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Joan Lunden	"Holding on to anger, resentment and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. Forgiveness gives you back the laughter and the lightness in your life." (in Healthy Living Magazine)	070713
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unhinged	he doesn't even deserve my anger because he is a sell_out bitch. i watched him hurt plenty of people i cared about. i watched him lose every redeeming quality because he thought it would get him what he wanted in life. somethings are not easily forgiven. it's not something i dedicate much thought to anymore usually. she just freaked out for a couple hours the other day and managed to rip the scab off an old wound.	070713