blather
clenching
unhinged the muscles grab around and harden into a big ball
in my stomach
in my heart


fear_of_the_unknown
fear_of_being_alone

fear that none of this
will work the way i imagined
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unhinged a strange phone number with a milwaukee area code flashes across my game of angry birds and i feel the familiar ball in my stomach

then suddenly there are
tears
trembling hands

the visceral reaction my heart still has to you
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