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for the sole purpose of venting thier Satanic pscyhotic animus the root thereof is an imaginary and irrational sense of offense the root thereof some imaginary slight because thier imperial ego wasn't satisfied when the object of thier siemically unstable circumnavigations well past the prodromal early stages of mentapausally and respectively geriatric induced dementia/psychosis that are reminiscent of cinematic depictions of demon posession, okay? so i'm saying that i continue to meet these sad flailing postures, i and my family and guests who witness thier instability, met thier irational animus with poise, with a terrible coldness and calmness of Gibralter certainty. So here's me hoisting the cold eye of defiance wringed with an amused and yet tragic sense of pity for the gyrations of those wretched lost who can't accept the lost luster and promise and potential of once promising lives, lost, abandoned to the abyss of soem intra-psychic and spiritual conflict that manifests itself in these violent emotional reactions to imagined slieghts.
You who read this - the sons and daughters and friends who have been gathered into this enterprise, this conspiracy of harassment and terrorism (as defined and proscribed by PA Penal Code to address not just racially motivated harassment and intimidation but also the intimidation and stalking of women and children and the campaigns of harassment and terrorism of nieghboors against same race nieghboors and tenants who share a domicile, a duplex or apartment and or condominium.
Send your armies of the damned. You cannot intimidate me nor wilt my poise. Beware of starting the fire that grows into the inferno that annihilates everything in its' path with no mercy or discretion for the hapless pawns caught in its path.
know this, that i will call an army if you are foolish enough to follow the whims of the insane and spiritually, demonically oppressed, can you not see the abandon of reason in their comments, postures and rationales? Or were you nurtured in the black abysmal womb of this orchestrater of unmerited reprisals and assault?
take this and read this and fume over this and listen to the rot of your own heart eating itself out as you fall deeper into this conspiriacy of terrorism, behind the eyes, behind these lie a burning Hell and if you get bold enough to reach for me, to place your hands on me you will meet It. And you will know terror, you will know loss, you will become intimate with the forces that I hold in abeyance, the forces that lie behind my poised mask of moral and or spiritual humility and certainty. This calmness is bred of storms, child, of mayhem that few minds can contain.
The time for words are well past. I live a quiet live with my son and the occassional visitor. And yet a father and his child have become the object of soooo much harrassment. Why are you intimidated by one humble man. Why so many against one? If you ae so certain of your superiority (shaped and nurtured by the very bowels of Hell, fed by the eternal torment of those already writhing in its realms, why so many against one? What is the basis of all this hate? Is there no one with the will to step forward? I s there no one with at least a thread of decency? Yeah I be YOUR ADVESARY, so in that, if we are to take our death blows together, for that will be our certain fate for mercy and decency and restraint are alien to the damned!!! And once the hand of hate is raised against me, once it becomes the enemy of MY LIFE!!!!!!!! Mercy, restraint become alien to me. Enough words.
I simply await your abandonement of this course (wich is doubtful given the sadistic and egocentric and DELUSIONAL natures of your DAMAGED pscyhes.
You can't take what God has given me. "My peace I have left with you" The end to your misery and suffering will not be the annihilation or departure of me and my choir boy son form this property. It will not be the end of your demonic oppression it will not be the end your endless chafe of ego - The blood thorns scraping down the bleeding meat of your soul will only find another pretext, because the sadistic, tyrannical control freak personal is incapable of looking into herself/himself. The sadistic megalomaniacle narcissistic is afraid of the silence and humility of introspection. For in those hours, in those bottom ocean floor black hours the dagger of lonliness and truth drags itself down the wailing wall of your repressed conscience, the real you that YOU hide from, the scared insecure battered child/person who has learned to erect these gyrations, these well rehearsed choreographies of will and assertion and rage and hostility and the pretensions of power to hide from that tiny voice in the center of you that will not let you rest.
IT WILL NOT LET YOU REST!!!!!!!
and these unfortunate but not neccessarily world ending conspiracy of harrassment is only a symptom of your tragic damaged sick twisted soul. You cannot stop its truth, its true voice its eternal indefagitable march upon your soul it will unwind itself eventually and the face the truth that you've been trying to hide from, and shout down through your oppression of others will finally whisper your peace into the new grave of your ear.
REad this and writhe. I am not the author of your torment, of your insecurity, of the monster that you have become but I WILL NOT BE THE REPOSITORY OF YOUR COLLECTED MISERY.
NO I WILL NOT!!!
BY GOD'S POWER BY HIS BLINDING HEART OF GRACE AND LOVE I WILL NOT!!!!!
By the way are you aware of the damage of the abuse you are subjecting your grand daughter to by allowing her to witness your emotionally disturbed antics? Don't you at least have the presence of mind to compose yourself for the childs sake? You pathetic narcissist think of someone, your daughter and your grand daughter and think about the damage you are causing to that poor childs psyche by letting her witness, by throwing her into the burning cauldron of your tragic descent into psychosis. You need a focus for your misery, something that will say, it's not me, it's not the sickness eating, gnawing in me that's making me feel so bad. those voices i hear in my head that sound so much like me, HE put them there. He that motherfucking trifling asshole who I wish I were brave enough and strong enough and I wish I could get away with killing him over and over and over and over again for he has done the unthinkable he has made me face myself, he has refused to indulge my sick damaged ego and made me listen to that damned voice in my head, made me see my own ugliness, he dared to tell MY TRUTH TO ME!!!!!!!!! by his clamness and his clarity and his OH GOD HOW I WANT TO GUT HIS NASTY MOTHERFUCKING TRIFLING WANNA BE WHITE THINKING HE'S SUMPIN' THAT BROKE ASS NIGGER HE AIN'T SHIT!!!!! I WANT TO KILL HIM AND WATCH HIM BLEED AND GASP AND PRAY FOR MERCY AT THE LAST AND GIVE ME WHAT MY EGO SO DESPERATELY CRAVES!!!!! GIVE ME WHAT I NEED, HE WILL GIVE ME HIS MANHOOD HIS PRIDE THEN THE BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO THE HELL DOES HE THINK HE IS!!!!????
mY gOD, IS my peace. My God is my peace and my confidense not the books i've read or the augmented exploits of a bygone youth. Yahweh the ONe true GOD, it is HIS light, it is HIS light that you see burning defiantly in my eyes.
You are breaking the law. You show your weakness by all the people you have sent against me and all the antics while I remain calm. While I and my son remain calm in the busom of our GOD.
Your misrepresentations to the weak willed and sychophantic rwetches who may be well meaning but sadly misled.
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