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kelsey
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my mom and my aunt have just raised my stress level mucho high, its been like this since they found out i cut myself, that happened months ago. They keep getting pissed off at me, for stupid things, like falling asleep after she asked me to make my bed, and i mean, i had the whole day to make my bed, and i don't even sleep so fuck, couldn't she just let me sleep as i was on the chair? i guess not. i let her though, indeed i did, after she promised me she would watch the movie i rented. My aunt told me to make something for my mom, you know something that says how sorry i am, how much i lover her, blah blah blah. Well guess what, i am not sorry, i mean im sorry she gave birth to me expecting something else of a daughter, but you can't just bring life into the world, expecting it to be easy, especially when that life hates life, but jesus christ, im not suicidle, that is where self injury is way overrated. She expects me to write some country song to spill out my soul of how sorry i am for her, i mean shes a good mom and all, but i can not write like that. I can write like a headbanger, a disturbed soul, a tattered piece of me and as marilyn manson would. But not a country singer. Some people need a good slap on the noggin.. i do know that includes me, i know its my fault my mom is stressed, but she takes so much more than it is. I really needed to vent. Excuse this posting.
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