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i received gifts in the mail today. they were wonderful gifts. books that speak to my soul. pictures of angels, words. they made me cry. such beautiful books. i would make her a snow sab but there isn't any snow. i would send her my reciprocal gift but it's one hundred miles away under my bed. thank you so much sabbie dear. your gifts and your handwriting brightened my day.
PEACE ANGELS
i remember
when i came here
the landing was very soft
i remember you were there with me
i opened my eyes
hello
it was a long journey and this was a new place
but it was ok beause i was not alone -
you were there.
i always saw you, you and your friends
shapes and blurs of light and warmth.
i giggled and spun with the newness
i could fly
i was a king
where did you go?
i remember feeling heavy
the day i went to sleep
i remember...what do i remember?
you know the feeling
not sad or happy
sort of in the middle of nothing.
i had teachers now, teachers i could see
they told me you only existed in books
that real people knew better
than to believe in fantasy
and i believed them
i forgot you
i remember yearning
the dreams i had
the sleep-wake existence
when i couldn't tell the difference
when everything was fine
no, really, i'm fine
i'm just a little tired.
i was feeling empty
i don't know why
waiting for you to show yourself
to remind me that you are here
always
so i searched
seek and ye shall find.
i looked for you at the movies...
on the television...
in magazines and on walls...everywhere
but i could not find you.
memory is strong like a computer chip.
we are all computers who hold
the memory banks of the universe
and if you search you will find
a snapshot, a glimmer, a little hint
of something greather than this.
and that is where i found you
laughing and smiling
playing peek-a-boo.
oh i missed you so much.
but i was always here, i never went away.
who made the slippery rocks dry...
who made the waves softer
who stopped that car...
who made you jump so high
who washed away the fever...
who loved you to life?
you are never alone
drink your tea
stop worrying
it's already fixed
take steps, make decisions
don't be afraid.
remember who you are
the one you see in your dreams
the one you love
the one you forgive.
for when you look into my eyes
you see yourself.
you see
i have never left you
i will never leave you
we are together always
every step
every breath
until the last.
and when you leave
i will come with you
on another adventure.
you are good company
i like being around you
take me with you
yes
-----Antoinette Sampson
it made me cry so sabbie. it just isn't right without the pictures. thank you oooohhh sooooo much. *HUG*
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