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re_alisma some would consider 40K an indecent living. i consider it 5 times my current salary. i think i'm worth that much (and not too much more because, well, i'm a changer not a stabilizer of anything i'm involved in) and i'm outright making a demand that the universe will get me a job that pays me enough to be a real citizen.

too much more, and i won't be worth it to the employer and too much less and i'd be selling myself way too short given the reality of my DYNAMITE EDUCATION.

so, thank you very much, life, just tell me what i need to do, and i'll do it, otherwise i'll continue to meander around and pretend that someday i'll tell everybody a really good story. and maybe i will achieve that, but, for now, i, pretty much, just pretend to organize my thoughts with very little hope/faith that anybody will ever pay me for it.... in other words i'm working on finding that story that exists for my own benefit and that of my esteemed audience and just assume i will die at semi-old age while it takes whoever delivers the mail about a month to realize it.

so, life, if you don't want that then 40K. please, pretty please, thank you.
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