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someone_please_tell_me
blown cherry Why I am so pathetic?
Why I keep hanging around someone who treats me so badly?
Why I can't let go and just be with some other person who will let themselves love me?
Why I so badly need this person who I call my friend, when I can't even bring myself to call them when I'm feeling so desperately bad, like right now?
Is it some kind of torture?
Am I punishing myself for deeds unknown? or at least unthought of?

Someone please tell me I just need to die and all my problems will be solved, I might listen to someone else,
everyone elses decisions are always better than mine.
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Someone who knows Seriously, just pick up the phone.
He switches on and off like a fucking traffic light.
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