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So I had this disturbing thought after reading some shaxbeard in my head that if how I act and what I "say" here in the blue, where I claim to express my true self, does not sync up with howe I act out inthe real world, that I must somehow be lviing a lie. that I don't have the balls to truely express how I feel and what i believe. that somehow, I amd not being true to myself. Is that the case? Do we (we being anyone here who empathizes with the scenario as I see it) really e3scape here to be ourselves when in the real world we feel we can't? Are we cowards? Are we trying to "not make waves"? Are we scared of being wrong? Of being right? Why can i be who I am here and not the same in real life?
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So I had this disturbing thought after reading some shaxbeard in my head that if how I act and what I "say" here in the blue, where I claim to express my true self, does not sync up with howe I act out inthe real world, that I must somehow be lviing a lie. that I don't have the balls to truely express how I feel and what i believe. that somehow, I amd not being true to myself. Is that the case? Do we (we being anyone here who empathizes with the scenario as I see it) really e3scape here to be ourselves when in the real world we feel we can't? Are we cowards? Are we trying to "not make waves"? Are we scared of being wrong? Of being right? Why can i be who I am here and not the same in real life?
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good question.... i see this site as a literary project, and i always have. i've come to think that that's because i perceive the name blather.newdream.net - to mean something similar to my own given name's meaning - and thus my writing here is an attempt to sort out my true name or some nonsense like that. paranoid thinking, i know. sometimes i do think of it as some huge and endless curse -- but it has been good to me for helping me overcome my shyness and for me to see when i'm being authentic and when i'm making-things-up (i.e. when i regret a blathe or later think of it as some kind of b.s.) does my blather personality match my real life personality? no! i'm much more boring. do i wish it did? well, no, i recognize my blather personality as basically antisocial. (so maybe this site has been counterproductive to me, i don't know.)
it's an interesting self-exposure project to look back on - embarrassing and enlightening, and why exactly is it addictive? maybe you are right in that there is something about the real social world that we are choosing to escape from -- in fact, I think that's a definite in my case, but I go through periods where I'm not looking to expand my social life - or there are perceived barriers and whatnot - or i'm trying some strategy and it's not really working. i truly want to learn how to write, but i can't say that it was my first goal in life...
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In_Bloom
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I am curious and enjoying this site for the purpose of writing
Some thoughts
Some hypotheticals
Some Truths
Some interaction
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how_am_i_not_myself?
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Freak
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I'd show you if I was ever allowed to let her out. But no. Shes hidden behind a happy face and edited opinions. "go along to get along".
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The Thing
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Dragging myself back up from the swamp where I have been loving among the roots and toads.
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