utalitarian_words
sab
and
sitting
here
,
reading
these
i
figure
out
that
i
havent
written
much
lately
.
yes
,
i
wrote
a
script
,
and
the
jury's
still
out
as
to
how
good
it
is
or
not
,
but
it
occurs
to
me
that
i
havent
written
anything
pretty
in
ages
.
and
i
sit
and
listen
for
the
voice
that
has
the
pretty
words
and
its
missing
.
lots
of
emails
and
lots
of
letters
,
lots
of
ideas
and
lots
of
art
but
only
utalitarian
words
.
and
thats
kinda
weird
.
050518
...
sad_bitch
will
provide
the
greatest
benefit
for
the
greater
amount
of
people
.
050519
...
olive
you
say
you
haven't
written
anything
pretty
in
ages
...
i
don't
think
i've
written
anything
pretty
in
my
age
.
when
i
try
,
even
reading
the
words
to
myself
embarrasses.
so
i
find
my
self
writting
nonsense
.
its
usually
not
nonsense
to
me
.
its
usually
little
pieces
of
things
in
my
mind
,
and
ideas
in
my
environment
that
would
only
make
sense
to
me
as
i
read
them
later
on
.
and
it
doesn't
make
me
embarrassed
.
because
no
one
knows
it
but
me
.
no
one
can
really
know
what
was
going
through
my
secret
mind
but
myself
.
i
need
to
open
up
.
be
more
...
pretty
...
i
want
to
feel
a
little
less
utilitarian
when
i
use
words
.
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...
unhinged
read
some
pablo_neruda
jim_carroll
ee_cummings
czeslaw_milosz
(sp?)
pretty
and
/or
pushing
the
limits
painting
with
words
connotations
like
colors
or
even
just
literally
turning
words
and
spaces
into
something
structural
on
the
page
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