blather
theres_blood_on_the_floor_my_love
sab and i can see inside me
and its all red and wet
and covered in blood
i am covered in blood
and screaming

my throat hurts
and its partly being sick
and partly from swallowing
these screams

slipping through my fingertips
faster than i can count
are strangers that i wish
i could met

people who from the outside
seem to have my things sorted
or at least are right there with me
a little further on

and it seems like all im doing
is meeting their shadows
standing in their wake
their dust
following their footsteps
but never catching up to meet them

standing on an empty street watching the setting sun
[setting sun]

its getting cold
i am cold

we'd better get a new sab
this ones freezing up

everything hurts
i can find things i didnt know i had
by their complaints
i have found places
i didnt know i had
by their troubles

i dont know how to finish this
because this never really finishes
this never really finished
[around and around and around i go]
and you've heard it all before
you've heard it all before

if
you stopped me,
because you'd heard it before
i'd propbably fall silent
forever

forever
forever

well, until i thought of something else to say
found something else to question
i question whether this helps and all i get back is
my arms hurt
my back hurts
my honesty hurts



and theres nothing more to be said
until the next time
i have words
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...
incoherent
{ and the pang of empathy ~pulled
like a loose thread
that unravels the whole dress
bleeds in between the spaces-
there are no words and not enough
to spill into this place for you}
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