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sabbie the black void is coming.

listen...


can you hear the roaring?
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telluswhattodo eeeeks! should we believe in jesus or something? r we dying now? 020609
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sabbie sit down.

hear the roaring sound?

it be the nevernever crashing closer...
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waitingonu sabbie stop it. your scaring me. that roaring is our library air conditioning. or do you think that is just a disguise for the nevernever storm or whatever? when it happens do we get happier, richer or poorer? should we take our clothes off first? 020610
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sabbie you think you can make it stop?
that jsut by pleading you can halt it?
or indeed anything?

the airconditioning is in on it. it gets a cut at the end when we are up against the wall.

you could try hiding under the desk and draping the tabletop with the thickest books you can find.

its not going to help,
but it might make you feel a little better.
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Mahayana bring your force up- nevernever
bring it to the mountain, airstreams, and the flames

move stealthily, flutter, crawl, sting, stomp, fight, to this, the place of the nearer to the groundmysterious mounting roar & reverberations

rise above with your rusted metal wings

bring your cindered feet to the ocean and wash manacles away from your strong ankles

ascend above oxidized wings, togged up in them as if they were obscurities proposals

do not fear the nevernevers undercurrent too much
make it this far, then, make it farther

envelop your shoulders in a mantle of soil--earth, proclaim yourself goddess of statues and icons and young, pregnant bellies
sing afraid nevernever as a song of rapture
LA LA LA AFRAID NEVERNEVER LA LA LA
refuse to apportion your blood to escape you when you are not brave

assemble in the silence and pay attention for the voice of your nearer to the ground mouth
your cunt is wise but it speaks to angels, devils, and the listening only, and it does not like to be interrupted
i have been, will be, am always
to converse in electrical energy, as we do now, is a familiarity that i act as if to believe in

think about vocalizing lightening once again, like ancient countries and two dimensions

fracture up your bones and furnish the pieces to your spirit, one by one
it will know what to do
when the nevernever comes


[~touch each other~]
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reitoei the infinite power of destruction held at bay. consumption round and round. strange wishes. i cannot remember my name. 020618
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birdmad ouroboros 020618
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Dafremen Funny thing is...it IS coming, as sure as I'm typing this...it comes.

It's not the never never though.

It's the always was, the always will be. We just couldn't see it through our own self indulgent, brain-obedient eyes, but it comes nonetheless and I welcome it with open arms.
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god before the beginning, after the end. always. 020618