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I make a habit of drinking cherry Nyquil (if there is any around) even when I am not at all sick because:
1) I like the flavor.
2) it helps me sleep.
I also use NoDoz to stay awake, even though it gives me stomachaches, and I have to keep it a secret from one of my best friends because she thinks I gave it up and I know it would make her angry with me.
The big irony of all this is that I do that stupid romantic thing where I wish I was doing harder stuff because it would make my life harder, and I do _another_ stupid romantic thing where I think than having *any* sort of drug problem makes me more of an interesting person, less plain.
I'm a damn fool.
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I share your over_the_counter substance abuse by using nasal sprays too often. That's even less romantic.
I've done serious drug abuse in the past and find it a little surprising that you think it makes you more interesting. When i recount those days, i'm always embarrassed by my past stupidity...
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i have been known to enable
i have been known
to huddle shivering
on my back deck late at night
under my parents' bedroom window
the cold clarity of the stars
the only light
in the small town where we live
without streetlights
no need for security
puffing a bowl
alone
late at night
crying
because he went to oregon
he went to oregon
and another part of me died
so i'll just smoke a bowl
to stop the tears
and fall asleep
a little less
uneasy
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I had to give up the cheery Nyquil (because I ran out), which explains why I am up at nearly 3 in the morning.
But I just took some Advil and I realized that I no longer bother to count how many I'm taking.
I used to take 4-6 at a time, now I just dump a bunch into my hand and swallow them all.
7? 10? 12?
Who knows. It's not enough to injure me, really, except over time... Hopefully I'll be dead before Advil starts giving me any serious problems, I know it screws up some major organ, I just can't remember which...
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yummyC
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liver?
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brain? ;-)
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Mahayana
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its liver damage that it causes
[worry if you turn yellowish]
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Mahayana
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perhaps, if i had more substance
shed find me irresistable and would
start 2 want 2 abuse me ...
as in: cant get enough of me
[nah] [pinches self & wakes up] [eeeeeeeeeeeppppppp]
[{what a dream}]
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dammit, i want heroin and i want it right fucking NOW!
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