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a chaotic gift to idealism Red Snapper - 4 Dead Monks

good beat, mellow guitar in the background... nice funk sound. reminds me of the old days of drinking bacardi rum 151, eating more hits of acid than a human should and smoking as much pot as i could inhale, as quickly as i could inhale it, sitting in my car out in the middle of nowhere backroad... lights off and the only things lighting the way is my lighter and the radio.. oh yea.. and the glow of my bowl when i hit it. :-D
totally fucked up.. out of my mind, nodding my head to some sweet tunes, and watchign the world around me spin into a picture of indifference.
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AeonFlummox Aphex Twin - The Beauty of being Numb, Section B

This is a wonderful mix done by Aphex Twin. It is a mix of a NiN song. You can find this song on Aphex twins "Mixes for Cash" album or off of one of the NiN remix singles. the one with "Reptilian" on it, i think.
A wonderfully mixed song. some humdrum elevator music with what sounds of low tune machinery, buttons, and sirens of a machineshop... mixed with a quiet horn of some sort in the background and twinkly piano`ish sounds. a horror seems to approach near the end of the song. like a sworm of bees swollowing everything all the surrounding sounds and the hollowed white nois sound of something growing from within, speaking in it's repetative babble.

very fitting for this moment.
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a chaotic gift to idealism Breakbeat Era - Late Morning

humming bass line, twangy guitar, and loads of monotonous drum&bass. good song. perfect for this moment as, i have been awake for hours, yet i just rose from bed and it's is past noon.
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Gods lil Fukker Turmion Kätilöt - Verta ja lihaa

Finnish... no idea what is being said. I once read the lyrics after being sent to a forum by one of their website admins. I cant recall what the interpretation is but, from what i CAN recall, it is somewhat mobid and somewhat lovely.
it's a great mix of metal meets techno. i suppose if one were to sum up this song, you could say that they sound of rammstein with a good bit of techno mixed in and what exists for metal, is alot heavier. the vocals feel to hold alot more conviction as well. a very pissed off tune.
at this point in time i feel so fucking mentally exhausted and a good pissed off tune is what i need to keep the wheels turning.
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a chaotic gift to idealism Pink Floyd - Echoes
(from the album "Meddle")

i woke up today, about 5 times, and when i finally rose to the day i was hungry, hungover, and my brain still hurt fromthis mental exhaustion i have been shoving myself through. This is classic PF. Classic PF at at its best. a crying lead guitar surrounded by the monstrous movements of happy drums, bass, and synthesizers that are enveloped in melancholy. David Gilmore voice of the time when he was still youthful. That melodic voice of his that children dream about as their daddy sings them to sleep. The voice of lullaby. The words speak aeons to me. only to be emphasized by this lullaby voice. it uplifts, only to calm at halfway, bringing about that certain fear that could only be brought about by something that we have not yet conjured in our minds. the lead guitar weeps.
the sound of echoes ring loud midway. speaking in the language of night. the language spoke by what is there, what is unknown, and never seen. cryin birds, screamng beings with no names. the albatros. as the synthesizer and bass slowly roll in, everything quiets. drips.
uplifting once more from the slow serenity that was, reaching upbeat like a battered army of war, thought left beaten, only to rise again to a glorious day of triumph. the beginning is now the end. the words speak loudly and true. David lullabies me to rest.
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poo Pink Floyd - Meddle - Echoes....
23 minutes 31 seconds of wonderful.
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a chaotic gift to idealism Blink 182 - I Miss You

Never liked this band... not at all for some reason. This song however. The lyrics are fucking killing me right now. Makes me cry. I wish they were killing me.
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a chaotic gift to idealism please feel free to share your own... anyone? everyone. 050618
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delial neko_case - if you knew

Such a powerful voice... I'm in love!

I'd heard only one song of hers sometime last year, didn't really like it, but I stumbled upon this today, and yeah... lovely. Do yourself a favor and check her out.
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a chaotic gift to idealism Blink 182 - I Miss You

heh. yea. what can I say?...
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a chaotic gift to idealism Butthole Surfers - Pepper

why is it the song of the moment?
I am wearing your shirt. I can taste you on my lips and still smell you on these clothes.
I dont mind the sun sometimes. It's 6:02am and the sun is rising.
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a chaotic gift to idealism Prozzak - Pretty Girls

how bouncey! weeee oooooh weeee oooooh!
Pretty girls make me nervoussssssss
oh yea oh yea oh yea oh yea
come on come on come on come on
weeee oooooh weeee oooooh!
pretty girls make me nervous
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pete sleeping in by postal service... 050619
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delial trespassers william - lie in the sound 050620
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Doar arsenal - kidney_thieves 050620
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green tea cat power - crossbones style 050620
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a chaotic gift to idealism anyone care to explain why? or has that been left to me alone to do for my own songs? 050620
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ABC 123 just you. get used to it. 050620
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a chaotic gift to idealism doh! 050620
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unhinged the entire elliott_smith album from a basement on the hill (sic)

what would you say
and
i woke up in a strange place by jeff_buckley


i like the band ugly_cassanova too since modest_mouse went mainstream
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birdmad Chemical Brothers "Setting Sun" / Prodigy "Breathe"

i am feeling hyper and aggressive and the beats keep me running.
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monkey out in space eric prydz - call on me 050621
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pete me and the moon - something corporate

i'm hooked meg...
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a chaotic gift to idealism Clint Mansell (Featuring Kronos Quartet) - Requiem For A Dream - Winter - Lux Aeterna

and

Clint Mansell (Featuring Kronos Quartet) - Requiem For A Dream - Summer - Party


a tragic celebration, the tragic loss of things not yet lost.
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a chaotic gift to idealism Tool - Ænema

I sure could use a vacation from this bullshit three ring circus sideshow
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a chaotic gift to idealism Korn - Got the Life(D.O.S.E.'s Woolyback Remix)






getcher boogey on
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a chaotic gift to idealism Marilyn Manson - Resident Evil Main Title Theme (Score)


What began with a morbid magnitude, overwhelming all you can see, only grows larger, more destructive. You can not run from it. You can not hide from it. It grows larger, only to toy like childsplay, taunting your mind, clawing at your thoughts. It grows, and when it has reached it's height, it destroys you and all that stand before it. In its end, it feels nothing, still playing it's childsplay in your ear, still beating you down, haunting you as it fades to death, laughing.

this score is a masterpiece in my ears.
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Freak fugazi - im so tired

out here i can barely see my breath
surrounded by jealousy and death
i can't be reached, only had one call
dragged underneath, separate from you all

this time i've lost my own return
in spite of everything i've learned
i hid my tracks, spit out all my air
slipped into cracks, stripped of all my cares

i'm so tired sheep are counting me
no more struggle, no more energy
no more patients and you can write that down

it's all too crazy and i'm not sticking round
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sirflaccid weezer - only in dreams
(which only solidifies my geek-dom)
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a chaotic gift to idealism Pink Floyd - Sysyphus (Part Two)

Most of you have probably not heard of this song by PF. It is solely piano and quite good. A nice tune to have in my head as i try to wake from my 2 hour sleep... into a day that i wish i could sleep through so that Saturday would be here sooner.
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pete down - something corporate

ask_me_why
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a chaotic gift to idealism Pink Floyd - Take Up Thy Stethoscope & Walk


the end of the 60's... first Pink Floyd album released, aside from Apples & Oranges, which was a single. Beginning of the 70's.... fucking twangy guitars and too much organ sounding synthesizers. I love it.
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sad_bitch the theme from the pink panther 050623
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unhinged fix_you

and

kingdom_come by coldplay
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chaotic gift to idealism Zbigniew Preisner - Secret Garden Theme


ahh Preisner... simply relaxing.
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