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thedunator You know who you are 010923
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ya he knows i miss him. 010923
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silentbob her

if only i thought of the right words, i could have held on to your heart
if only i thought of the right words, i wouldn't be breaking apart all my pictures of you
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Aimee Trina, Leslie, Tity, Cheryl, Ebony, Paul, Brian, Mom, Wolfie, and Grandpa... there are other days where I miss more people, but know what? These are the main people i miss 010924
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lost i miss myself. i miss thy. i miss a lot of people. i try to push the thoughts out of my mind but it's useless. so i get high so i dont think about it. either way by getting high or continually thinking i am going to go crazy. but oh well. i got high 5 days last week. everyday at skool. i didnt smoke weed. i took pills. they make me not feel anything. they make me feel numb. inside and out. 010924
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Norm All my buddies back in the home land. I wish I could drink in the woods with you guys again. Drinking at megaman tonight boys and girls, bring the funnel and tip back a few. 010924
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yummychuckle britt
jason
eric
travis...
hell, even ahrial and Logan
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psychobabe nathy, jesse, chris, rinna, mac, danny-sad enough as that is, and all the others :( 011001
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K L and C 011001
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fairydust people that i miss
and people that i don't miss,
don't get them all screwed up in your head,
and tangled in your hair.
i once liked someone,
and i imagined missing them when they were gone,
but i never did that for you.
and now you're gone
and i miss you
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Toxic_Kisses Red-G, Will, John, Ryan, Mr. Lonely, Bradly, Dan-yell. 011011
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Toxic_Kisses Paul/GoG/God Of Goats more than any one else right now. I wonder if he knows I never stopped loving him.
To live is to suffer...To survive is to find meaning in the suffering.
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sEth Tiff'ny, the guys from Dredg, the workers from when I was in the hospital...They were cool...Steve was the best...He let me stay up a half hour longer than everyone else becuase I was good... 011110
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sphinxradio my nearly-brother, and actual cousin, ben. i hear about him sometimes, from my uncle and my grandma.
last time i saw him he told me he wished i was his sister.
that means a lot to an only child.
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CheapVodka I can't say I miss alot of people. I miss sEth and I miss the way I was about 2 years ago...when I honestly didn't give a fuck.
I miss my StretchBirdie... see: Stretch.
I miss my brother who's away for the weekend.
I miss my cousin, the only person aside from my brother, that I wouldn't shoot in the face thru this whole family.
I miss my best friend Kevin... see: who_are_you.
I miss others but not enough to spring forth into rememberance when I need them like the rest...so you know
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Aaron i miss all the kids i used to party with and tehy know who they are(party = rave). i miss some of my ex girls, i miss my sanity, i miss thoes nights where i was totaly fucked up out of my mind and everything was great. i miss my first bump of ketamine. i miss some poeple i can't even remember their names, just kids i would see around the club. i have almost all my family around here somewhere, so no need to miss them. i miss the days before the purple jell tabs the second time. i miss being balls deep in some good pussy. on that note i miss having my face covered in it too. i miss being in love. i miss a few people that i havn't met yet... and they know who they are. 011111
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lovers lament we came together so easily, locked and intertwined like it was meant. nothing lasts forever. i tell myself that everyday, but it hurts just as much to be retold. 011111
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double-barrel birdmad the ones who get the courtesy of a warning_shot 011111
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Sonya Her...my best friend from my younger years. She was the closest one to me and we've been horrible at keeping in touch. I remember connecting with her on such a level that I felt like she was my long lost twin sister. The other half...my partner in crime, my confidant, and the one who would never betray me.

Him...so much was felt and exchanged in so short a time that I can't seem to shake this feeling that I have. A void settled in when we separated and now we no longer speak. Memories are starting to become vague and this bothers me. I can't even begin to touch on how much I learned from him, and no doubt how much he probably learned from me. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I had made the sacrifices necessary to help us carry on and give each other the chances we both deserved. I don't think I'll ever know now. All of those jokes and playing off of each other seemed to be what carried our spirits. Of course words we exchanged were meant at the time and perhaps we were foolish not to see the possible outcomes. We made so many horrific mistakes but despite it all I miss him mostly because I know he's not like any other. He has this way of making you feel better just by listening.

My grandmother...I miss her. She was the only grandparent who was alive for most of my young life and I still never got to meet her before she passed away. I would imagine she would have been critical of my foolish optimism and crazed idealism, but from what my mother says she would have been proud of me. Thinking of this just makes me cry because I realize how utterly flawed and selfish I am. I miss her because I know how much she would have given to me if she only had the chance.
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Subterranean Visions i miss Ashley Taylor. she has been my friend since we were four years old, and i havent seen her in about a year. she was kinda ditzy, but really nice. she got pregnant, moved away with her kid. i should find her number and call her. 011113
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lady lunchbox samantha. shanna. tika. christon. valerie. amanda.

i'll see sam around, most likely at pizza hut. i'll get shan to visit me someday. tika'll be here for her birthday, cuz she won't miss the free booze!! i may never see christon again, but she was such a great girl! if val's still getting married, i'll be there! and i'll be there for amanda and little baby claire whenever they need me. i miss you all so much.
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reitoei ak 020324
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little wonder kelly & stefania mostly.
sometimes a handful of others but not enough for me to say hello.
i miss nicholas too i guess...i haven't seen him since i was 5 and i wonder what he looks like and what kind of a person he is.
someday i will look him up and say hello.
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megan great grandpa charlie
great grandma streitenberger
heather
roomie
russy
chuck
the lemasters
amy
tim and sherry
doug
guy the cat
kyle
walter
holden
jennifer
jo-ann

that's why darling... it's incredible... that someone so unforgettable... thinks that i am... unforgettable too
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who i am doesnt matter anymore i miss someone. someone that never wants to hear from me, so i try to hide these feelings i keep locked in my mind because one too many times have i almost slipped and tried to come in contact with them. but its probably best i stay to the side, keep my thoughts to myself and let them hide. so you will never know how deeply i really miss you. even if i got the chance to tell you, i doubt youd even listen. 041113
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BarbyDoll Sierrah, Aaron, Nick, Maria. Sometimes missing them makes me sick to my stomach. 041113
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nighean_siofra eric. 041114
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love & hate my katie 041114
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Staind_And_Souless Keli 041119
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oldephebe becki, andrew, joe, joan, The Lester, stephanie, mat, J, the girl that sat with atop the bleachers and breathed the soft rose breath of her hair, her heart and built fairtale kingdoms that melted with the dawn, uncle brooks and brooks jr., diane, darryl, the OTHER stephanie, sharon (the track althlete and history buff) the guy that used to play piano in that jazz club in charleston, the OTHER theresa from west virginia (great personality) rev armstrong, rev reed, and so many more
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Octavo I miss the ones I see every day.
The quotidien is the best hiding place.
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uh huh quotidian 041120
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Octavo pulp fiction But most of all I miss you my beautiful OED, gone are the days when I was your companion on the shelves. Now I make my home among the throwaway novels on the supermarket shelves. 'They flee from me that sometime did me seek...' 041121