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amy nada in case this ever gets interested readers, i don't imagine you'll find this worth reading, really. or, if you must, skip to the end.

whoever originally wrote the quote in the heading was really either stuck in some warped worldview where only *some* people are put to the test, or they were really on their high horse about what you'd want to go for and when.

actually, i find this configuration of mine (my outer planet T-square) to be a little overly normal, straightforward, and boring. especially boring since it describes the novelty only and there's no real novel content within it.

it's like, okay, let's have you feel abnormal when you're really normal. i suppose it's good for artistic ideas, but there's really nothing there for talent. so it's obviously a transitional point A to point B thing. transportation style is definitely a train, and the ride is only mediocre. that's okay, because you know what? i'm sure that happens and it happens probably a lot and it's not just me and some kind of this-is-your-last-chance to do or be something really important to you. way too egotistical. what this is is something really normal, but it might be a little more accentuated in my max_headroom bag of bones-and-jelly.

this post has been about some occultish astrological writings from the 20th century which i really have had to first regard, then reject. probably in response to the implied rejection within the original speculation. it gets like that, that's why i'm guessing it's generally not recommended. although i do enjoy overcoming this kind of b.s. because i feel just that much more secure in my purpose.
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