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stephshine threaten.

threatening to swallow me.

it's now or never.

it's trite as hell.

i must change my life.
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stephshine hm.

this all seems a bit dramatic in the light of day.

still want to change my life.

just don't feel like a steel knife is being held to my throat pushing me forward to do so as i did last night.
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hsg1437 why threatening? 070304
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stephshine too much bad shit threatening to overpower a positive spirit.

the muddle of the past 20 years.

threatens
to
overwhelm.

but that was yesterday.
tonight, respite.
not sure why.
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