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love_or_whatever_as_addiction
just me it's just not... preventable?
i mean, just the semblance of being in love is enough... strolling around laughing with a cute boy...
or sitting by a campfire, as my brain turns off and I begin to babble about kinetic and potential energy and he grins and says "you're crazy", and I remind myself that he's just friendly
but fail

it feels the same every single time, and it doesn't get better

and it's not even love or anything approaching that, it's just whatever that cute fuzzy feeling you get when a cute boy smiles at you is

but it feels good and bad at the same time, and it's terribly strange yet familiar
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