blather
losing_friends
straylight i lost every single friend i had 5 years ago when my family moved away. recently: I lost one to the US army, i never see him anymore. I lost one to a weed head, when she fell in love w/ him and wouldnt hang out w/ us anymore. I lost another one to this god damn church, he's a changed a man and doesnt like doing stuff anymore. I lost 2 more good ones to 2 skanks that for some reason requires aalll their time. today i lost another one, which is sad becoz she's my best girl-friend. im sorry jenny. im very sorry. 040303
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jane saying_goodbye 040304
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Lick And making enemies. 040304
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In_Bloom Cut one loose to float free in the peripheral
Acquaintance
I let them make the first move and held them gently until I was sure of what they needed more
I cut them loose to float, not fall
My hands are mostly open
Still
090521
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unhinged i said to him at work today
'i haven't even known what you're about
for the past year now'
and he looked up from the guitar he was stringing
and shrugged


and then i went to his show tonight
and saw him kissing her
the_reason_we_dont_hang_anymore
and in the heat
of a drunken hip hop show
i took her hand
but in my head
i was screaming:
'i lost my best friend in the fucking world cause of you you dumb bitch'
090522