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i hear you andrew... i have one of these.
i think it's the most ridiculous situation. I'm just doing what I normally do, and along comes this person, and then they run away, or hide. I kind of got a kick out of it at first, because it's rather curious behavior, but now it's becoming increasingly annoying. I mean how in the world can this person even pretend to think the things I do, have anything to do with them?
This all seemed to begin out of nowhere, too. First it was really arcane to me that this person was more-often around, because I don't remember ever seeing this person this much before. Perhaps I just never noticed, I'm not sure. I was starting to think, 'maybe I should leave...' and it has now snowballed into a production that would shame Shakespeare. It's the things I DON'T do because of this person's paranioa: I don't feel like I'm allowed to carry out the necessary functions of my day, or go where I need to go, to carry out said functions; otherwise, my presence seems to make this person feel the need to panic. I re-arrange my daily objectives so there's no way at all they can coincide with this persons existence, and still, once in a while, we cross paths and it freaks the fucking shit out of this person. I find every excuse to delegate the things I need to get done to someone else, just so I don't have to see this person, or deal with this person's issues; I'm running out of favors. I can't tell anyone WHY I can't get 'this' done, or go 'there', because I dont know how many people would identify with being made to feel like a stalker. I just try to find a way around the whole situation. It makes ME so uncomfortable to get the vibe that someone thinks that way, that I'M beginning to think that this person WANTS me to feel like I'm doing something wrong, by merely existing in the same time and space. This is a person I barely even know! I should be able to say something about it, but it's apparent that conversation is unwelcome, when even occupying the same emormous space seems unquestionably inappropriate to this individual.
I sound hypocritical because, on the same token, I suppose there could be a logical explaination. If I can't figure how this person thinks my being there has anything to do with them, why should I think their wacky behavior has anythig to do with me? I hope it doesn't, and I try to foster that point of view, but I'd say the wigging has definately gotten past the point of coincidental. Plus, they make it apparent by looking right at me - stunned - then pulling a 180!
Fuck, It's like, what if my being here is really torture for this person?
It makes me feel sick to my stomach, but I can't help it if I need to get from here to there. I can't change it that this time, there happens to only be the one route, and this person is blocking it. I can't help how a person feels about themselves. Or me. If I was really that almighty and powerful that I could cause a person to feel anything they didn't want to, wouldn't I be doing something more lucrative with these 'superpowers'?
It really freaks me out that someone either hates me that much, or is that afraid of me like this. I'm pretty direct. Believe me - If there's a reason I'm crossing paths with this person, they'd know because I would tell them. I don't get it. It's just really bizzare and it's starting to creep me out. I'm begining to wonder; maybe this person thinks I'M the false stalkee and is doing everything THEY can to not be the target MY opinion that I'M being stalked. Who fucking knows? Isn't this retarded?
Look, person: I'd take another way if I already hadn't started out in this direction. I'm not going to turn around and run, like you do, because my being here has nothing to do with you in the first place - why should my leaving? Why should YOURS? Either get over whatever it is that got you in this funk, or get over yourself. I just need it to stop because I'm tired of re-arrangnig my routine so my escape route isn't clogged by your freaky-ass hang-ups!
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