failed_suicide
unhinged
the
summer
queen
it
was
the
only
thing
i
really
had
of
interest
in
my
room
to
read
when
i
got
home
so
i
started
reading
it
again
.
joan
vinge
is
one
of
my
favorite
sci-fi
writers
.
there
is
this
character
in
the
book
that
tries
to
kill
himself
when
he
is
captured
by
these
people
but
this
girl
comes
along
and
saves
him
so
he
endeds
up
with
big
scars
on
his
wrists
.
in
the
society
that
he
was
from
,
suicide
was
considered
honorable
because
'
if
there
is
no
honor
in
life
let
there
be
honor
in
death'
and
people
hated
him
more
for
failing
than
they
did
for
trying
.
he
ended
up
being
the
hero
of
the
universe
and
had
his
scars
removed
but
he
always
felt
like
they
were
there
.
some
of
mine
have
faded_away
but
they
still
feel
like
they
are
there
. randi
looked
at
me
like
i
was
crazy
when
she
noticed
them
.
but
bethann
understood
.
whatever
happened
to
'
you
can't
blame
a
girl
for
trying'?
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...
LawnGnomeFreak
The
story
of
my
life
.
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...
MTK
"
I
failed
to
kill
myself
.
I
tried
,
but
it
didn't
work
.
Someone
please
help
and
kill
me
."
Whatever
...I
had
a
friend
who
swore
he
was
going
to
kill
himself
.
He
was
just
yanking
all
of
our
chains
--didn't
really
have
the
balls
to
pull
it
off
.
You'd
better
not
be
one
of
those
.
You
know
,
there's
already
way
too
many
people
here
.
If
you're
going
to
do
it
,
then
do
it
.
Don't
say
anything
,
don't
do
anything
,
and
go
do
it
somewhere
where
nobody
can
see
.
And
if
,
in
that
split
second
moment
right
before
you
die
,
you
have
any
second
thoughts
--remember
this
and
remember
what
I'm
about
to
write
:
you
have
the
power
.
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...
p2
i
recall
reading
about
a
french
revolutionary
robespierre?
i
dunno
anyway
he
was
one
of
the
leading
revolutionists
until
he
started
criticizing
some
other
powerful
revolution
leaders
they
turned
on
him
and
sentenced
him
to
death
while
awaiting
his
death
he
tried
to
kill
himself
with
a
gun
and
failed
he
spent
the
last
hours
of
his
life
before
his
execution
with
his
jaw
hanging
off
his
face
from
his
poorly aimed
shot
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