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souless wanderer Tonight signified the end of a 5 year relationship. A friendship that I am responsible for ending. Apparently, i need to "get over myself." Apparently, I'm the reason it ended. I didn't put enough effort into blending in with her new friends. I need to get stoned. Or cut. A couple of cuts at least would be reasonable, right? Since its all my fault anyways? I'll smoke, then see what happens.
By the way, what are friends, anyways?
How do you know if someone really thinks of you as a friend?
How do you know that your friends aren't really the people who will turn on you on a moments notice?
I'm going to cry, and cut, and smoke, and pretend that I'm dead. I wouldn't have to face everything falling apart if i was dead.



is rocking back and forth in her chair.
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mangrove YOU never know.
we know.
you just hope.
have faith.
or hide and close off the world.
and that's not really living.
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iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl it terminates here.
please leave your emotional baggage behind, we can't take you any further down the line.

i'm sorry sir, you'll have to get off here.
you can't cut it any more.

thankyou for your time with amicotravel
we're sorry but your ticket has expired, and this is a one-way line.

goodbye.
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nomme) "launch torpedoes" 050711
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LS You'll never know what anyone else is thinking but yourself. You cannot say for sure if anyone is your freind, but you can know if your really someone elses. Think about the impressions you give people, and if you live up to the hype that builds around you. 050712
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tessa i miss my friends 060812
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emmi what is that moment... that exact moment when a friendship changes?

last night was one... and i'm not sure it was worth it
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moss It's the kind of thing you don't think actually happens. You expect to break up with boyfriends and girlfriends eventually. But friends, they are there forever, right? 060813
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tessa And yet, for one reason or another, so many are slipping away.

Should I grasp after them desperately or quietly watch them drift out of reach?
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arwyn sometimes it's so hard to let go of them. So much time has been invested, but the relationship's turned toxic. slowly maybe, but it still hurts. 190828