you_hated_my_poetry
Lila Pause
I
tried
to
write
him
a
letter
...
All
my
tragic_looks
and
unchecked
wild
affection
squashed
down
into
one
standard
sized
envelope
.
I
felt
just
like
Renee_Zellweger.
But
you
know
....he
only
hated
my
poetry
. Passion_for_passion. An_eye_for_an_eye.
An
equal
measure
of
indifference
for
every
drop
of
sentimenality.
When
you
blush
,
he
turns
away
; inversely
cool
.
Yes
,
and
that
was
the
problem
:
When
I
felt
like
Renee_Zellweger...he
must
have
been
feeling
exactly
like
James_Spader.
040806
...
misstree
one
loved
it
until
he
saw
how
much
of
it
there
was
.
one
threw
it
in
my
face
on
tolouse
street
in
the
middle
of
a
fight
one
never
mentioned
that
i
had
even
given
it
,
but
i
think
i
may
have
tickled
some
small
part
of
him
that
wasn't
a
dead
monster
.
and
one
drinks
deep
my
words
, breathed
them
in
from
a
million
miles
away
.
the
only
one
who's
hated
my
poetry
,
well
,
i
hated
his
,
so
it
worked
out
well
.
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...
unhinged
i
spent
hours
copying
them
on
plain
notebook
paper
in
black
ink
because
i
have
a
severe
aversion
to
blue
ink
ironic
in
this
setting
maybe
i
knew
i
would
throw
it
all
away
afraid
that
you
would
hate
my
poetry
even
though
it
was
love
or
denial
there
of
that
wrote
every
word
040807
...
falling_alone
its
fucking
teenage
angst
040807
...
misstree
it's
fucking
anyage
angst
it's
teenage
angst
with
a
better
vocabulary
040807
