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it's not that our country is the most foolish or inhumane in the general sense. i have no doubt that the character of other civilizations in history's parade would get into as much if not more trouble than american currently is. however, that will always remain conjecture. for better or worse, (and for now) we are the superpower. this leaves other countries looking like they went through their rough periods and came out mature, our parents already. and so we are the brash bold vunderkid with the potential to ruin or glorify our parents lives. and really america is ugly right now. still, we've brought, even if democracy was a tax write-off and rights its details, far more good than bad into the human canon. but we're at a crucial time. we cannot afford to be as dumb as humans and their governments have traditionally been. technology now maginfies our flaws tenfold. our mistakes reach the rest of the world enrage them, so much more quickly and clearly now. there is no heresay to hide behind. and we're crowding the world, pushing up against each other. we can't support ourselves by starving our support. all of the cliched metaphors about the earth being a mother are then apt. but they do seem cliches, we dismiss them as we drive to work as we fill up our cars. how foolish that we never believe in cause and effect until it's happening here. usually by the time it's too late. there was a time when life was not considered damage control, but a system, not careening, not squeezing joy out of precious last moments, but ebbing flowing, something. perhaps the universe's very nature is consumptive, is a case of indigestion for god, a hurtling burp, but really that isn't an assumption we should act on.
and another thing about america. what's with our myth of the self sufficient individual? we're so caught up in the apperance of eagaltarianism, with every transaction limiting its scope to whats on the table. to bowing to no one, to trading up front. but really we're just denying ourselves what we need. so we get drunk and hug our friends and then both get defensive about it. usually it goes like this...
"i'm going to say something defensive now, you?" "yeah, i suppose i should" while maybe they both think how it wasn't that bad, or even quite nice. and if we just allowed ourselves to need from the people we need from, and not one transaction at a time, but recognized the relationship, supplicated before them. well we'd be better able to give to those who need us and to take from those from which we need. this isn't as ugly as it sounds since there's nobody really at the top. someone you need desperately needs someone else desperately even if it isn't you. but we have to pretend that we're all self sufficient, chin up back straight just taking my midday break from work walk. it's so ugly and crippling the barriers we erect for this sake. it just makes it impossible to even talk to another person about the fact that the world seems like its ending, or that america isn't going so well. you are too busy concentrating on eating this dinner, on not offending company, on what we have for sure. but what we have for sure isn't the future, and that's what's of interest sometimes, when it's tied to the present, when the present might not be as beautiful as we're selling to each other that it is all because we think that's what people want us to say.
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