seeing_reality_for_what_it_is
perfectly_chaotic
Perhaps
I
am
a
fool
for
making
this
claim
,
but
the
clouds
in
my
mind
are
gradually clearing.
Maybe
not
as
fast
as
I
would
like
or
fast
enough
to
make
a
difference
in
some
cases.
As
of
late
I
have
been
able
to
see
the
inner
turmoil
within
the
minds
of
some
individuals.
They
may
not
wish
to
discuss
such
uncomfortable
topics,
particularly
if
they
involve
myself
or
other
people
we
mutually
know
,
but
I
can
put_the_puzzle_together
.
My
actions
were
not
intended
to
increase
your
burdens
...
but
I
am
weak
in
many
ways
and
had
yet
to
find
the
pieces
which
mark
the
puzzles
end
.
As
the
weather
clears
in
my
mind's
eye
I
see
regret's
approach
.
It's
carriage contains
a
cryptographic cipher.
The
universe
has
a
message
for
you
about
your
own
personal
truth
.
It
is
unfortunate
that
this
cipher
only
decodes
part
of
that
message
.
It
is
up
to
you
to
fill
in
the
rest
of
the
blanks
,
but
I
have
faith
in
your
ability
to
put_the_puzzle_together
without
my
help
.
110215
...
unhinged
putting_reality_into_scattered_mind
meditation_in_everyday_life
shambhala
milarepa
tonglen
the_four_noble_truths
the_four_seals
110215
...
Ouroboros
better
than
hiding
behind
lies
or
make
-believe.
but
just
because
it's
"
better
"
doesn't
mean
it
feels
good
.
110215
...
unhinged
once
at
a
saturday
morning
group
at
my
shambhala
center
somebody
asked
'
well
how
do
i
know
i'm
doing
the
right
thing
?'
and
one
of
the
more
senior
teachers
in
the
group
said
something
like
'
cause
it
feels
like
the
wrong
thing'
with
him
doing
the
right
thing
doesn't
feel
wrong
but
i
can't
find
romance
there
with
the
other
him
doing
the
right
thing
doesn't
even
come
up
because
everything
i
do
feels
wrong
and
part
of
my
heart
is
still
tenaciously
attached
110215
...
See Reality For What It Is:
Unseeable.
110215
...
lostgirl
it
is
what
it
is
.
or
is
it
?
sometimes_i_think
that
reality
is
someone
else's
dream
perhaps
a
novel
in
progress
or
an
unfinished
and
unedited
film
?
hopefully
my
next
lifetime
will
be
easier
.
110216
...
unhinged
sadhana_of_mahamudra
160904
...
tail-devouring snake
I
used
to
avoid
it
,
for
the
dirty
word
I
thought
it
was
.
I
steered
clear
,
echoing
the
scorn
I
heard
from
others
,
not
knowing
the
beating
of
my
heart
every
instance
was
exactly
it
.
I
avoided
and
sought
it
twinly
active
search
.
The
blandness
of
secular
meditation
was
a
key
.
The
pictures
of
sunsets
I
took
.
It
took
me
years
to
accept
that
prayer
is
what
I
have
been
searching
for
all
this
time
. I_am_love
160905
...
unhinged
mahamudra
the
great
seal
the
great
dance
of
all
the
particles
of
the
universe
basic_goodness
fires
me
up
to
do
something
to
engage
people
on
the
issues
to
care
too
much
about
politics
to
stand
on
my
soapbox
to
stop
and
listen
to
someone
in
need
()
160906
...
unhinged
no
mud
no
lotus
everyone
suffers
first
do
no
harm
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