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unhinged
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like ripples on water
six_months_ago
i finally made the decision to
let_it_all_go
you
us
me in light of you, us
you have refused
you don't respect me or my decision
you called, leaving messages laced with
emotional_blackmail
(maybe i clung to you for so long
because
you fed my inferiority complex)
you always argued
'i never hit you, i never stole from you'
your_voice
replayed as:
'you are a bad person'
me
a bad person
like ripples on water
like dominoes tumbling over
one after the other
back to the little girl in me
that always tried so hard
to make every single person in my life happy
so yeah
you never hit me
but part of me would have preferred a black eye
to the shame and guilt
eventually the calls tapered off
because i steadfast ly ignored you
and just the other day
after months of silence
again
you called
why don't you just block his number?
i see you called
my stomach tightens
i close my eyes
bracing myself for another emotional verbal blow
that never comes
i don't block your number
because i am afraid
afraid that if i do
you will just call from a different number
in a tirade of explosive anger
to let me know what a horrible person i am
for being too exhausted to care
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