blather
anhedonia
paradive i'm just plaing emotional blackjack 010917
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paradive i'm just playing emotional blackjack 010917
...
unhinged i always lose at that game 010917
...
kss you stand and smile
and I’ve already accepted
your resignation
before you even say
hello

stuck
in a perpetual state
of compensation
always building,
working,
planning.

never feeling
like I’ve arrived.
when can I relax?

faith is a mental state
designed for counteracting
contradictory signs
filling the empty
a mental distraction
from the lacking

finally
when the lights turn off
it’s cold and dark and quiet
and the echos of something else
fade away
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