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f Why do i have to wait so long to find someone that has some meaning behind them, some depth, some real shine.

It is starting to feel like the spontaneity is running low, I want rainbow colours not a mixture of angry dark reds and browns.

The most unattractive thing to me is something that is planned. You CAN NOT control the energy flow from being to being, don't deaden it by trying to be intelligent.
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They call me Truth i used to think that that someone, one who possessed depth and meaning, that unique individual that just fit me and make me feel like i had found my soul did not exist for me. But one lucky day i talked to an old friend and realized that this person was here all along, and i was too tied up in other things to see.
but now i feel so lucky to find someone who actually fits me and who makes me feel like i've found the other part of my soul.

i am very lucky.
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