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Ouroboros nothing is a joke.
this is all so epically sad.
life is, love is, yes,
and this world right now, how we are- is it any wonder I weep in my dreams, weep during meditation? Tears arise and I weep for this world- that what is so abominably wrong is taken as normal. I weep for myself and all the things I will never do, the places I will never go, the children I will never raise. 2012 indeed- we are at the edge of a new day- but there is no dawn.
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falling_alone from any way you look at it, he was an asshole, a bastard.
and going into this i thought my eyes were wide_open
but i had the perception i could be treated like a human being to him, to be treated with consideration.
even that was too much to ask for.
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perfectly_chaotic everything is a joke, but the joke usually appears to be all on me. turns out i am quite the prankster. 110703
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Ouroboros my heart cries with joy! for the love i have in my heart for myself, my sweetie, this earth, all life. our children we will have and raise, the beautiful land will will live on, the nights of laughter, questions, dancing, loving, breathing with him. all the sunsets i will see, the bread i will break, ever dawn i will see. 131107