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destroy to create I've smoked weed, meth, ciggarettes, snorted coke (and smoked it), taken ecstacy and lsd and i drink (and huffed a few chemicals). And nicotine is the only thing i cant let go of. the second hardest think to let go of is alchohol. And these 2 things are the only legal drugs. but maybe if these other drugs were legal and just as easy to get it, it would be harder to leave them too. so maybe it's not so weird that i'm killing myself with this. if its not this it would just be something else......so maybe i should just move on to something else. i'm pretty sure my spine is healthy enough to take on some damage. my veins haven't even been touched.....there's something to invest in. i can now increase my lifespan by focusing on other body parts to damage. i shoulda thought of this sooner. 040415
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hyena i'm too angry to care anymore. 040419