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Arwyn
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Why is it that irresponsible teenaged girls and their barely committed boyfriends are always able to conceive a child (or so it seems)that they definitely don't want and when a child is planned for, prayed for and wanted beyond belief by a couple that is committed "until death do us part", they have the most trouble trying to conceive? I don't get it. We actually want a baby, we want that expression of our love for each other, we want that perfect little creature. Yet, why can't we conceive? I blame myself... I don't know why... I really have no reason. Maybe I just don't want to accept that it could be him. Oddly I feel better believing it's my fault. But "there's always next month, and we always do have fun trying" as my dearest has been telling me. I just feel terrible. I feel like I let him down, I feel like I let myself down. It's just not fair that people who don't want children have them every day, and I, who wants one more than anything, can't even conceive one.
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