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silentbob i think of a sexual offender. someone who needs it so much that they would go to the point of inflicting sexual damage on someone else. a sexual predator. you'd do it to someone else and try to convince them it was right.
or that they deserved it. and to mask your own guilt to justify doing it, you turn it around on them and tell them they were asking for it, that it was their fault.

isn't that fucked up
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bryanfrbs yeah, that's fucked up.... 020424
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daxle I get all wobbly and anal
baby_satan, you're my loinmonster
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satan satan satan ...i feel shot right through with a bolt of blue (everytime) 020424
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green eyes sometimes when i think of you, my stomack jumpes and falles back down to my knees

sometimes when i think of u my head sweels and i lose all consept of words,

But then sometimes i think of u and i'm overwelemed buy how much u love me
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phil I hit myself 020609
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kill rhythm its shocking 020610
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Toxic_Kisses I can't help but smile 020610
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Kate I think of February and March memories. I think about the time that you whisked me afterschool into the doorway of the Biology room. I think of your clothes and your smell. I think about the songs that you loved and that I love too. I think about a section of my life ending. 020610
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unhinged i want everything i can't have. 021125
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girlnamedlover I want to puke 021125
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methinx I wanna run away with you and come back alone. 021125
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Kate I think of achievement and wonder and how you actually stop behind the white lines of the road, and I think of how you liked that song and movie and how you read so much more than I do and I think of you and your seven AP classes and bright smile and that grey zipper hoodie and Plato. 021126
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Rhin 'when i think of you, baby, nothing else seems to matter...' J.Jackson 021126
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girl_jane Ditto, Rhin. 021127
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girl_jane see this_little_catholic_girl .... 030510
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tulip bruises i bite my lip, thinking about your lips. i squirm slightly inside, knowing that right now at this very moment, you are real, you exist, you are on the same planet as me. 030523
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niska i think of hugs. 030523
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girl_jane Bobby-Is the person I think you're thinking of the person you are thinking of when you wrote all that...because that only makes me think of one person that you and I know... 030523
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ClairE when i think of you
i_do_this_everyday
when i think of you
i_do_this_everyday
when i think of you
sleeping_alone
when i think of you
alone
my_heart
alone
my_heart
when i think of you
my_heart
sleeping_alone
i_do_this_everyday

summertime_love
the dogwood
summertime
summertime walks
love and
love and when i think of you
sleeping_alone
my_heart

i_do_this_everyday

when i think of you
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niska who's that guy, just hangin at your pad?
he's lookin' kinda bummed
yeah you broke up thats too bad
i guess it's fair if he always pays the rent
and he doesn't get bent about
sleeping on the couch when i'm there

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sometimes, i wish...
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god well, cool. i won't respond to you until i hear your voice. 030527
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Dustin* ....I find myself wishing that we never fell apart.....* 030626
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jane i like claire's poem 030726
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delial I feel beautiful inside
I feel warm and sweet
like i'm sitting in the sun
like i'm relaxed, on vacation
like there is no deadline to meet
like there's no chore left undone

I feel complete

That is, until I start to think realistically about how things are.
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my little secret I remember. I have learned much, yes, but I learned the hard way, the hurty way. Oh, and I'm different, sure, I can't deny it, but in ways that will leave scars. I no longer ache for the past, oh no. I have moved on. I have learned to be happy and be content with the happiness. I don't want what I can't have. Still, so much has gone, I had to lose so much and it hurt, maybe it doesn't hurt you, but it hurts me and that is enough. I still worry for you. Still want you to be happy and yes I still wonder what you're doing, what you're thinking. I remember you used to tell me those things. Maybe we weren't the best of friends and maybe you are the asshole I always said you were, but I loved you. Stupidly, yes, but honestly, purely, with everything I am. And it pains me that you can't even remember that time as a good time, that you list it among your regrets. And even if I no longer ache for what was even if I know it will never be the same, and I can accept that, it will always hurt, because I love you. 030727
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Silly Song I touch myself 030828
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bloody trail I think of the good times
I think of the bad
I cry and I miss you
I smile but I'm sad
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three words when_i_think_of_you makeout_songs architect 050319
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oren When I_think of you
I_feel anticipation.
My silver_lining.
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