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stork daddy i have about a 43% success rate at communicating to another person. which is weird, because my sober rate is like 12% and i feel far more alienated. still, even high, i'm on the outside looking in. 050216
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stork daddy am i being creepy? oh god i'm being creepy. i'm going to pass out and shit myself, and they'll have to clean up after me i just know it. 050216
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nope you're not being creepy. 050216
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blown cherry I shouldn't drive. But I did anyway.
Well, I'm home and still alive anyway. I wouldn't do it if I were sober, but the inebriation brings me to a state where this life seems far less appealing, and no matter how fantastic and sexy everyone tells me I look, it doesn't change the fact that the person I do/don't love was only fucking me, and is now making love to some skanky fat chick.


wishes the world would go away
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unhinged my walls crumble
and i have a hard time holding the tears in
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jane i do things like this: 050216
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jane now, if you see, i've mixed up the "says" box with the "you" box. also, what i had to say was parenthesis with a period in the middle. if anyone asks me what the hell i was trying to do, i would not be able to answer. 050216
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unhinged and i say things i otherwise would not say and then have to walk away to stop myself from screaming


is it so hard to believe that i would hate you for using me like you have for the past almost six months?
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unhinged yes my walls crumble
because i don't have the strength to hold them up
watching you move on so easily
because there wasn't much between us
but i had let hope in



and i went home alone
and had to lock myself in my bathroom
oblivious
blasting ivet
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iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl awww i love saying that im inebriated.

most of the times i'm so drunk that i'm falling on the floor and not feeling it. the next step being the jump out of the window just like he did! then appearing back in the room in 5 seconds.

man the joy of being inebriated is fucking S W E E T.
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