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was perfect, and all i ever could have asked for. it was the light of my life, the reason for my smiles, and the happiness that could stir me in the mornings
i left. i still dont regret this
you changed. i changed
i am still me. you are still you
for the first time in my life, i believe. there is a constant light in my life which cannot be taken away, a light that fills and does not dim. more than anything, i love this light from christ and his love is the light. love is the light, duh_brian
and now that i have this, i feel as if i am losing you. slipping through my fingers at the very moment when it all came together for me. and i could love myself and god and you the way it always should have been, but you are slipping, leaving me. at least now i have comfort in him. love for him first as i should. but you
oh dear god, thank you for this light
not now. not after so long.
because i found the greater proper light must i lose the one i had?
slippping through my fingers like the wet sand on the dutch coast
slip. drip. drop
maybe youre already lost
but no. i refuse. through the love i have inside me thanks to he who made and saved me, i refuse
hold me. let me hold you
slowly. a tune up. a burrowing
vancouver awaits
what_we_have will soon be ours
together. with him. through him.
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