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IWishICouldGoWithDavid Sleeping in our bed
Saying "I'm home" and no one asking "Which home?"
Not having blank walls
Planning for a future that involved someone other than myself
Filling up the emptiness with anything at all and not just being empty
Not regretting this
Pretending
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Emptyness Alive my soul 061103
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Emptyness Alive being ignorant of the people around me
not caring
not being loved
being alone

Now i know how people feel
now i cant see someone upset without trying to help them
now im loved so much and i cannot help them to stop loving me
i am still alone though their always around me
now they think im better than i am
i cannot live up to their image
i cannot be as strong as they say
but i must be or...
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