blather
what_do_i_know
a chaotic gift to idealism i am no doubt less than all the rest.

words of deep seated passion, love, joy, a long life of bliss together, are not given to me.

the moon was out tonight.

it did not rain above my house.

i am the same as all the rest.

i am less than they were.

i would rather be those who i am not, those who i envy, those who were they, those certain special individuals who...

fuck it
i'm done... goodnight
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