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unhinged i can't say i know what's going on with me and him. i think we met each other at the wrong time in our lives. i get that butterfly feeling when i talk to him or sit with him or when i wait for the bus to go see him. his life makes me want to wrap him in a blanket and feed him chicken soup.

the first time we got stoned together we listened to much radiohead. i convinced him to give me enough blank cds to burn him all the buckley that i own. yesterday we got stoned again and listened to jeff_buckley for close to five hours. the first time he got silent i asked him if he liked it and he got a quiet smile on his face and said 'yes.' i'm glad he likes jeff_buckley . i told him i was afraid i wouldn't have been able to keep talking to him if his reaction was ambivalent or bad and he laughed. many times in the next five hours our conversation mutually drifted off as we both floated to mutually exclusive planets listening to jeff stoned.

there is a weird thing between me and him that was only enhanced by listening to jeff_buckley stoned. i am only more definitively convinced that we met each other at the wrong time in our lives.

'if you didn't notice, i didn't let you stay at my place last night and i probably never will.' but that doesn't make me want to cuddle you any less.
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unhinged but alas is there ever a good time for a self_hating addict? 050411
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unhinged dude

i burned you all the buckley i owned and brought you really good pot. if you still can't figure it out you must be some kind of moron. perception; yours is way off drowned in bourbon and strangled with smoke.
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