blather
washing_sheets
lulie finished.
washed you off my computer
off my walls
out of my dresser
free, free, free
everywhere but here
everywhere but here.
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unhinged i should have washed the smell of him out of my sheets, but i kept it there as some sort of perverse punishment for being weak and stupid. and every night i layed down to bed, i buried my face in my pillow and took in a deep breath of fear and pain and hatred and betrayal and deceit knowing that it would never go away. the smell of clean sheets intoxicates me. 020218
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lulie a think i'll be looking for new sheets. 020218
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lilac_air I love the crisp smell
of clean sheets

sweet lilacs fill my sences

as if I am laying in
a spring feild of flowers

it is sweet heaven to dream in my sheets
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lulie I dream of sheets, lust for sheets, sheets fill my heart and soul and make me a whole woman, they right all wrongs, cure all ills, fights the "axis of evil". Well, maybe not. 020218
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unhinged twisted


and this time (god...the fact that there is more than one time; it sickens me) i did the same. i punished myself for something everyone keeps telling me was not my fault. but it was you see. i trusted him and he hurt me.
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