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Jana yes, i wait to see you smile, to fall in love with you in the very moment we meet, to know: yes, you are the one God sent as an answer to my prayers. So you know what? -you are a miracle, the miracle i prayed for, a miracle to me. 050803
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my skin slippery crease licking,
small teeth stifled smile.
I love that, you know?
I'll wake you up
smiling wide like caffiene
and you ask me if I found coffee;
me rooting it out of nowhere
like a truffle frisking pig
and I'll kiss your arm and rub your back
toss your clothes on your feet
start working your shirt over your head
(sometimes you won't even open your eyes)
random mornings you'll grab me hard
pull me whole into you
while I count minutes by our clock.
Your smile will bring me to work
on time today.
I don't have to keep my mouth closed
when you follow me
out the door, shut the screen,
past the gate and up the step
to the car and I wait
watch the lock turn itself slowly up.
I can tell you
oh, I had this dream
and on and on.
I can say I love you and you might even respond.

then some other time, maybe,
another morning,
you'll be wishing I had taken the
initiative
caught the bus, one two three four,
walked on my own, kissed you goodbye without waking, five six seven,
catch the bus home,
let you play your computer game.
eight nine ten,
read a book, coo to my bird alone.
All day spent
wringing
waiting to see your smile
and hoping you won't blame me if you don't.
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neesh and it will be a while 050805
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her royal highness the quirk at me with a come-hither smile 050805