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unhinged ebay is ending it's live auctions....isn't that what that site was originally for? 080416
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unhinged my dreams and meditations have been invaded by sex; i feel like the teenager i never was


the other day, for what i can remember, i had the first dream of me having sex. hormones have overtaken even my sleeping hours.


but i could have awhile back, it wasn't right. not the right person or the right time. somehow it was more satisfying to say no. might i actually be healed of the time my sweet innocent nothingness went to torn taken allness even after the words 'i don't want to' crossed my lips? god, it would be nice if that was finally behind me.

like he was
in that dream
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jane wait_forever 080417
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past there's the friends you love
and then
there's the friends you love
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unhinged i don't know what it is that stops me
(well maybe i do)
maybe i'd feel better if i just said it
i_love_you


and you keep talking about
leaving
once the loans are paid off
and really
what reason would i have
to stay
in this goddamn stupid place
without you?
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unhinged that is the best damn hummus ever
(gotta grill the pita)
i'm never buying that premade again
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