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transitional_depression
jimmy even if i am pretty depressed right now, sad thing is, it's probably just because i graduated or am experiencing change. which means, it's not as meaningful or indicative of the general world or the conclusions i've come to on it as it feels. it can be shrugged off with some pop-psychology phase as a bad mood, as the monday of life. it makes it feel so less real, like these thoughts i'm having because of it, they're not the cause? they're the effect. maybe it's less real because i'm so willing to let it pass, to not act on it. maybe it won't gracefully pass, maybe it is larger, there is an anxiety i'm once again dismissing as the passing of days. 040304
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jimmy and it happens again and again and again and we find reasons. until we're lying on some death-bed too old or else too young, and we feel some unanswered question. but we comfort ourselves by saying, this feeling is just the feeling of death. it's just a normal transitional depression. 040304
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jane kairos time 040304
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white_wave strange but i thank i am reaching my saturation point. i have blathed to the point that i have emptied much of the verbal juice and it's starting to feel dry inside. a few days ago i would want to talk about any subject i could get my fingers on. today i am a little more picky about my selections. and it makes me feel a little bit sad...

this is not my way of covering up my feelings of guilt. i no longer feel guilty for overblathering (well maybe a little). i am not leaving. and that decision is final. 		040305
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mrs. howard roark I am sad becaue I'm not sure how this works exactly oh and I'm lonely as hell 040307
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