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unhinged don't_touch_me 041111
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oldephebe sometimes..yeah...

even with my son, ex girl friends, matronly aunts, mom, sisters, buddies
track team members, dearly departed ex-wife....

i'm just a frigid up tight guy is all... i guess
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kookaburra this usually only happens when i'm angry or depressed






which is what, 90% of the time?
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unhinged i think it's a subconcious fear of spreading my disease of self_loathing; at least for me anyways.

i only allow the kind of touch that enforces that; like meaningless_sex

physical touch is only an extroverted expression of inner want; sometimes i just can't stand the thought that someone.....nevermind. that's my same old circular arguement of self_hate.

just don't_touch_me
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superleni i hate men who grope my bum in pubs and then look hurt when i hit them.
i hate that custom of strange guys i've just met being allowed to kiss my cheek just because they know my friend/s ... some social obligation ... it's gross.
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stork daddy i think the fact that you claim ownership over a bum is disgusting. let the bum decide if he/she would like to be touched before you go and haul off on someone. just because they don't have a home doesn't mean they don't deserve the same tentative autonomy as the rest of us. 060522
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superleni you demonstrate your ignorance of how the bum became mine. suffice to say they were circumstances such that the connection is strong and mutual; she is loyal, monogamous, and firmly attached to me ... for now. 060522
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stork daddy that doesn't make her yours, that makes her in current agreement with you. ownershipt though denotes dominion and control, which the ability to dissent necessarily negates. stop touching my response. 060523
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Emptyness Alive i dont know why but wen i talk to people i dont like them touching me much but i do like touching them not in a perverted way but if there crying wipe away a tear stroke a cheek with a thumb i know its strange but the girl mates i do it to seem to like it. i love hugs though i cant getenough of them i dont kno y but i like holding people make sure there safe. thats the only thing i like about me and thats my hugs 060523
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superleni i suppose you could say i am hers, as she is mine.

although, in fact, there was no agreement, it's just the way we were formed. we are inseparable. without each other i suspect we would both die. in considerable discomfort.
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unhinged prickly like a porcupine 200221