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auburn wasn't mine.

I can't give it back.

I sure hope I grew enough to make it worth it.
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Lover_Of_Light Twelve months and more
In this time I've tried to see something
Learn something
Justify somehow
That incident of incredible belief, trust and joy... I'd like to stop remembering it so it will stop hurting

There is other time I've taken
To balm and soothe
More like to distract and thrill
Even for a short while
It helps a bit, with the hurting and disbelief
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unhinged almost 19 years and the struggle just doesn't seem worth it anymore. always on the wrong side of the politics, not a good ass kisser, the physical ailments that stop me from being as good as i could be, the lack of funds for a good instrument. but what else would i do with my life? what else could i do with my life? when i think about it, my mind draws a blank. 090601