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throws_up_hands
every man dies love or don't
feel or don't
care or don't
is there a difference?
the only reason that it hurts to not love is because i have loved. which puts the phrase "it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" to the test - which it fails. i pour my heart out, and recieve hte same and still get left - all my life one abandoning moment after another; girlfriend, uncle grandfather, mother... fuck it. fuck you - i can do this on my own - i will die before 35, i will live, truely live. you will be jealous of my youth and vigor. and inside i will already be dead.
it is better to have never loved at all. it doesn't matter though, none of it does.
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ferret i_want_to_throw 031125
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magicforest *then wishes she hadn't eaten her hands in the first place* 031126