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this_was_her_world
blueberries i proved to God there was a heaven and my knees ached for days. i could not open my eyes in fear of the light that would burn them. i was cold, no one there to hold, until you came and gave me the reason. 020103
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continuous light and i was not welcome. he was trapped inside by his only son, clawing at the door to get out. reduced to a pleading animal that was caught in a trap. an animal that would rather lose a limb than lose its freedom.

but here we are. two lovers acting like strangers so he might stay shackled and chained in her world.

-i never knew you-
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maris den cie when i'm weak, i draw strength from you. 020422
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shorlove "the piano teacher"? 030424
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fyngula yes, the piano teacher, a must see film for all of those in search of their marox pass.

maris den cie.
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megan a scale that became a monster
and was your nightmare when sleep came
a constant nagging of the stomach
feed me feed me
no, but i cannot
a war
with no cut sides
and no winner
dirty looks and questions sneaked
behind her back
among fake friends and surreality
why won't it stop?
why can't i stop something i started?
no, mister, i swear i'm fine.
no, leave me alone.
no, i don't want to talk about it.
i just want soemone to care...
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.-. and as hard as i tried, i never managed to be more than an alien in it 030425
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Chris aka it was your world, but times are changing. You don't know how good you had it. 061017