this_is_honesty
so fucking lost.
this
?
this
is
honesty
?
there
is
no
honesty
.
i
am
lying
to
you
now
.
i
lie
to
myself
every
day
.
everything
i
have
ever
been
told
is
a
lie
.
everything
i
have
ever
said
is
a
lie
.
this
sentance
right
here
is
a
lie
.
there
is
no
truth
.
i
cant
find
the
truth
.
i
dont
think
there
is
a
truth
anymore
.
just
layers
and
layers
of
lies
.
im
not
even
sure
im
under
here
anymore
.
if
you
could
strip
away
all
the
lies
peel
them
all
back
it
would
be
just
like
a
cabbage
.
peel
them
back
so
far
that
i
would
disintergrate
into
nothingness
.
how
ignoble.
020430
...
so fucking lost
no
full
stops
.
no
abbrivations.
no
grammar
.
just
this
.
this
is
the
most
honest
i
have
been
my
entire
life
.
i
wonder
what
that
says
about
me
.
020430
...
bethany
i
said
he
died
coz
he
was
in
new
york
in
september
the
11th
to
be
exact
then
she
told
her
mom
who
told
his
mom
and
they
were
all
mad
that
i
would
say
such
a
thing
that
i
would
wish
such
a
thing
now
he'll
never
beleive
that
it
was
a
miscarriage
why
else
would
i
wish
him
dead
i
still
think
about
it
when
i
put
cookies
on
trays
and
watch
my
simple
minded campers
sleep
020430
...
thieums
What
our
parents
don't
teach
us
And
we
discover
by
ourselves
when
we
get
older
(
much
older
)
Basically
,
we're
always
staying
kids
in
our
heads
Hopelessly
lost
in
the
general
mess
that
life
is
Hopelessly
lost
Until
we
die
Kids
in
adults'
bodies
Elderly
kids
Kids
till
our
death
bed
.
It
would
be
basic
honesty
to
acknowledge
this
but
no
We
need
to
pretend
We
need
to
pretend
to
be
adults
To
be
in
control
,
in
charge
Not
to
be
afraid
Let's
keep
pretending
then
, fellow
adults
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