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"That's what you are doing.
"If one thing's wrong, then it's all wrong, and if you just make that one thing right, then everything will fall into place.
"Only you'll never stop programming, so you'll never be able to just be where you are."
"But isn't it a good thing to want to improve yourself? If you aren't doing that, aren't you just settling?"
"You need to learn to be happy. Why can't you be happy where you are and still try to improve?
"There is only one moment, and that is now. You've got so much going for you. If you can't be happy now, no amount of improving yourself is going to fix that. You are just going to try to keep fixing things, and then you'll die, still unhappy."
Basically, I've got to stop thinking that happiness is something I've got to achieve, that it's a puzzle I can put together. I've got to stop thinking_in_code.
That solution, that bug fix, isn't going to fix me. Only I can fix me, and only by not dwelling on past errors, by moving on and living for now. Or I'll drive myself crazy.
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